Back in ’09, I made horrendous choices to live by my own sinful pursuits and to rely on my own selfish gains…I chose the ultimate form of betrayal. I saw sin as sexy and secretly lived a double life. Since no one knew, how could I ever be ashamed of who I was pretending to be? I lived in this fantasy island where denial kept reality at a distance. I was not loyal…I was not kind…I was purely selfish and hurtful.
To my dismay, YOU knew all along. You sensed it from the start and although I dismissed my own premonitions of what could go terribly wrong, I flirted with sin anyway. I let go of you and was no longer devoted. I took my life in my own hands and played with fire. I knew that lifestyle was not worth living, especially at the expense of your unconditional love for me. But I knew what I wanted, and I went for it completely disregarding your kindness, your loyalty and your love for me. I was a woman on a mission. I made it happen because I so badly wanted to. I turned away from you…my world, my everything. You have always given me more than I ever thought I deserved…from material to spiritual. And in return, I betray you by choosing a life without YOU.
As life has its way of opening our eyes to what’s real and righteous, I finally got caught in the act. I had two choices…I could run away and continue to pursue my own selfish gains or I could do what’s right for once in my life. I made the decision to become submissive, to work towards faithful loyalty and to learn what it’s like to put others before me. It was the toughest thing to do but the easiest decision to have made. I chose to understand the meaning of TRUE love. It took this devastating lifestyle choice to get me out of the bottom-dwelling hell I secretly thrived in.
Now more than ever, I want you back in my life as my leader, my best friend and my provider. I want to know love like I’ve never known how great it can be. I want to wholeheartedly love and give back to you for all you’ve done for me…although I may not deserve it. I love you and can honestly admit how shallow my love once was. It took that life of sinful choices for me to finally get it.
I’m so happy for 2010 to come to a close, and I’m thankful to be ending this year on such a high note. This year I had to face damning consequences as a result to my irresponsibility. But looking back over this tumultuous year, I come to realize it’s been THE best year of my entire life. I have lived, loved and learned so much about friends, family, myself and my faith. More importantly, I’ve learned what gracious rewards await me should I choose a new life of doing good and working to be right.
So thank you for this second chance and for this new life. My promise to you is to remain devoted with a desire to live a life truly worth living. I will never leave you and will never forsake you ever again. This life isn’t my own…we’re in this together. I come only second to you. I can never repay you for all that you’ve done for me, but from this moment on I will love you, my God. Heavenly Father, I promise you this.
"I’ve strayed, O Lord, and turned aside,
I’ve disobeyed Your voice;
But now contrite of heart I turn
And make Your will my choice." — D. De Haan
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
The company you keep
In late July, I blogged about purposely surrounding yourself with the right kind of people. I recently heard a thought-provoking concept about how your personal character shines through the friends and family nearest and dearest to you. Now let’s pretend. Imagine you’re up for a big-time job interview. Instead of the prospective employer asking you to come in for a face-to-face interview, how would you feel if a family member or close friend was asked to interview on your behalf? Assume the typical questions regarding your character and work ethic were fired at will and your close friend or relative had to answer all grilling questions. Would that worry you? Or could you rest assured that their personality and professionalism would help your reputation? To put it simply, would your friend/family help or hurt your chances of landing that job?
The company we choose to keep is a direct reflection of our character, moral standards and personal ambition. Assuming that the friend/relative representing you is among the 5 people you hope to become the sum of, then you’ve got nothing to worry about. If not, it may be time to reexamine who you choose to surround yourself with and how they’ve influenced the person you claim to be when first impression matters most.
The company we choose to keep is a direct reflection of our character, moral standards and personal ambition. Assuming that the friend/relative representing you is among the 5 people you hope to become the sum of, then you’ve got nothing to worry about. If not, it may be time to reexamine who you choose to surround yourself with and how they’ve influenced the person you claim to be when first impression matters most.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
A year in review: 2010
Today’s Our Daily Bread Devotional was quite timely. I’m constantly examining the person I am today thanks to this unbelievable year of life-changing events. Thank God for this journey I’ve been blessed to learn and grow from! As recorded in my previous blog posts, I’ve learned quite a bit about life, love, faith and true devotion along my daily walk with God. The greatest bit of wisdom I’d like to impart for those still soul-searching is that all you can do is your absolute best and trust the Lord will take care of the rest.
(Psalm 77:11-14)
11 I will remember the works of the LORD;
Surely I will remember Your wonders of old.
12 I will also meditate on all Your work,
And talk of Your deeds.
13 Your way, O God, is in the sanctuary;
Who is so great a God as our God?
14 You are the God who does wonders;
You have declared Your strength among the peoples.
Today’s devotional encourages faithful followers to contemplate where you’ve been and what you’ve done this past year. Reflect and record the significant events in your life. Be sure to include any difficulties and disappointments while highlighting sweet memories and milestones. But please remember to consider all the ways God has been with you while carrying you through every trial and triumph.
“When we look back and contemplate
What we’ve been through this year,
We’ll praise You, Lord, for all You’ve done—
Your faithfulness is clear.” —Sper
(Psalm 77:11-14)
11 I will remember the works of the LORD;
Surely I will remember Your wonders of old.
12 I will also meditate on all Your work,
And talk of Your deeds.
13 Your way, O God, is in the sanctuary;
Who is so great a God as our God?
14 You are the God who does wonders;
You have declared Your strength among the peoples.
Today’s devotional encourages faithful followers to contemplate where you’ve been and what you’ve done this past year. Reflect and record the significant events in your life. Be sure to include any difficulties and disappointments while highlighting sweet memories and milestones. But please remember to consider all the ways God has been with you while carrying you through every trial and triumph.
“When we look back and contemplate
What we’ve been through this year,
We’ll praise You, Lord, for all You’ve done—
Your faithfulness is clear.” —Sper
Friday, December 3, 2010
Beauty for a Cause 2011 Calendar
As of Decembe 7th, I should have 2011 calendars available for purchase. These are no ordinary calendars. Inside you’ll find beautiful women all adorned in clothing and accessories provided by Bittano at Mockingbird Station and the latest in the Mary Kay cosmetic line. Everyone involved in making this calendar possible did so out of generosity and the desire to support a great cause.
I believe I’m operating a Mary Kay business for several reasons. One particular reason is that I get to be surrounded by beautiful women who know style and class. One day I decided to take my passion for photo shoot production and MK cosmetics to a whole new uncharted level. I decided to produce and direct a 2-day photo shoot utilizing models I personally casted, a fashion-forward professional photographer I hired, and a hair and makeup team of exceptionally talented women I selected. It was a HUGE success! Not only did the pictures come out great, but everyone involved was so excited to support a cause.
I have recently become involved with Genesis Women’s Shelter in Dallas. I have also admired the community outreach that the Society of Young Philanthropists Dallas has so publicly displayed. This year, SYP Dallas has pledged an audacious goal to raise $25,000 to help Genesis Women’s Shelter. After having been encouraged to take my Mary Kay business and tie sales efforts towards a worthy cause at this year’s annual MK Seminar, I merged the two organizations’ efforts. I then decided that all proceeds of the 2011 calendar featuring beautiful and fashionable women will go towards SYP’s $25k goal.
As soon as I made the decision to plant this seed and watch it grow, the response has been overwhelming. As of Dec. 7th, my vision will become a reality as I will have in my hands copies of the calendar to distribute to anyone who’d like to support the variety of artistic talent, beauty and of course, the main cause. Buy a calendar at just $10 each and all proceeds will help SYP accomplish their pledged amount to help the women’s shelter. Not to mention, you’ll be supporting the small businesses and skill sets of the makeup artists, hair stylists and photographers who have graciously participated in the project. Below is a preview of the models. Contact me ASAP to reserve your copy of the Beauty for a Cause 2011 Calendar!
I believe I’m operating a Mary Kay business for several reasons. One particular reason is that I get to be surrounded by beautiful women who know style and class. One day I decided to take my passion for photo shoot production and MK cosmetics to a whole new uncharted level. I decided to produce and direct a 2-day photo shoot utilizing models I personally casted, a fashion-forward professional photographer I hired, and a hair and makeup team of exceptionally talented women I selected. It was a HUGE success! Not only did the pictures come out great, but everyone involved was so excited to support a cause.
I have recently become involved with Genesis Women’s Shelter in Dallas. I have also admired the community outreach that the Society of Young Philanthropists Dallas has so publicly displayed. This year, SYP Dallas has pledged an audacious goal to raise $25,000 to help Genesis Women’s Shelter. After having been encouraged to take my Mary Kay business and tie sales efforts towards a worthy cause at this year’s annual MK Seminar, I merged the two organizations’ efforts. I then decided that all proceeds of the 2011 calendar featuring beautiful and fashionable women will go towards SYP’s $25k goal.
As soon as I made the decision to plant this seed and watch it grow, the response has been overwhelming. As of Dec. 7th, my vision will become a reality as I will have in my hands copies of the calendar to distribute to anyone who’d like to support the variety of artistic talent, beauty and of course, the main cause. Buy a calendar at just $10 each and all proceeds will help SYP accomplish their pledged amount to help the women’s shelter. Not to mention, you’ll be supporting the small businesses and skill sets of the makeup artists, hair stylists and photographers who have graciously participated in the project. Below is a preview of the models. Contact me ASAP to reserve your copy of the Beauty for a Cause 2011 Calendar!
Thursday, November 25, 2010
28 weeks and counting!
I'm thrilled to share we had another very successful visit with the doctor earlier this week. It was a rather busy check-up this time around. I was poked and prodded for routine glucose tolerance testing, fetal heartbeat checking and a more comprehensive sonogram exam. Praise God, the doctor said this baby is absolutely perfect!
This was the second time we found ourselves in the sonogram room anxiously awaiting a live pictorial of our baby-to-be. When I hear the strong thumps of a heartbeat and notice his beautiful nose and lips, this incredible feeling overcomes me. I told my husband Baby Isaac has the most beautiful nose and lips I've ever seen...but perhaps I'm biased.
The last time we were in that sonogram room, I remember this rush of excitement along with a pacifying sense of comfort after learning we’re having a baby boy. The feeling was so intense tears started streaming down my cheeks. I was so happy, and no words could ever capture my gratitude and amazement.
This pregnancy, so far, has been so blessed…beyond what I would ever ask God for. It’s no doubt He’s watching over me and caring for this darling baby. I know that most first-time moms-to-be are overwhelmed with such joy at this point in pregnancy. I’m sure like in most cases, there’s nothing more relieving to hear than the doctor’s utmost satisfaction with the progression of the fetal development. But for my husband and me, our happiness cannot be contained as we realize what we’ve been given…a second chance.
I believe God creates inexplicable beauty in tumultuous times of uncertainty, pain and misunderstanding. God’s gift to us is the beauty of redemption found in the gift of new life. However, we never thought this would happen to us…not right now especially. As we continue to be showered with love, support, unending prayers and genuine happiness from friends and family, not everyone in our life feels the same about this new beginning in our marriage. Believe it or not, we know of individuals who aren’t truly supportive of what God has planned for us. But sadly, that’s their problem to deal with. If only they could look past the confusion of their own pride to realize there’s nothing more beautiful than new life.
I can only pray that one day these folks look up to Heaven and realize the good Lord is the God of second chances and redeeming love. Only God knows what we each truly deserve in this short life on earth. Only God can control our pre-destined fate. Only God has the gift of making what seems unlikely a reality. This is a true testament to His awesome powers.
My husband and I have endured a challenging relationship filled with trials you can’t even begin to imagine. Let’s not forget, we’ve persevered through losing our first baby-to-be just months before this pregnancy. Thankfully, God brings restoration and grants those who choose to follow Him with a second chance. We’ve had a second chance of love and now a second chance at life.
This pregnancy may be perfect in the name of science and medicine. But there’s nothing more beautiful or more perfect than this gift of new life. Thank you, Lord. How could I ask for more?
This was the second time we found ourselves in the sonogram room anxiously awaiting a live pictorial of our baby-to-be. When I hear the strong thumps of a heartbeat and notice his beautiful nose and lips, this incredible feeling overcomes me. I told my husband Baby Isaac has the most beautiful nose and lips I've ever seen...but perhaps I'm biased.
The last time we were in that sonogram room, I remember this rush of excitement along with a pacifying sense of comfort after learning we’re having a baby boy. The feeling was so intense tears started streaming down my cheeks. I was so happy, and no words could ever capture my gratitude and amazement.
This pregnancy, so far, has been so blessed…beyond what I would ever ask God for. It’s no doubt He’s watching over me and caring for this darling baby. I know that most first-time moms-to-be are overwhelmed with such joy at this point in pregnancy. I’m sure like in most cases, there’s nothing more relieving to hear than the doctor’s utmost satisfaction with the progression of the fetal development. But for my husband and me, our happiness cannot be contained as we realize what we’ve been given…a second chance.
I believe God creates inexplicable beauty in tumultuous times of uncertainty, pain and misunderstanding. God’s gift to us is the beauty of redemption found in the gift of new life. However, we never thought this would happen to us…not right now especially. As we continue to be showered with love, support, unending prayers and genuine happiness from friends and family, not everyone in our life feels the same about this new beginning in our marriage. Believe it or not, we know of individuals who aren’t truly supportive of what God has planned for us. But sadly, that’s their problem to deal with. If only they could look past the confusion of their own pride to realize there’s nothing more beautiful than new life.
I can only pray that one day these folks look up to Heaven and realize the good Lord is the God of second chances and redeeming love. Only God knows what we each truly deserve in this short life on earth. Only God can control our pre-destined fate. Only God has the gift of making what seems unlikely a reality. This is a true testament to His awesome powers.
My husband and I have endured a challenging relationship filled with trials you can’t even begin to imagine. Let’s not forget, we’ve persevered through losing our first baby-to-be just months before this pregnancy. Thankfully, God brings restoration and grants those who choose to follow Him with a second chance. We’ve had a second chance of love and now a second chance at life.
This pregnancy may be perfect in the name of science and medicine. But there’s nothing more beautiful or more perfect than this gift of new life. Thank you, Lord. How could I ask for more?
Friday, November 19, 2010
Christian Women Week
My aunt sent me the following email message yesterday. I thought it was so great that I had to post it on here. Enjoy!
"A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man should have to seek Him first to find her."
When I say that "I am a Christian," I am not shouting that "I am clean living.
I'm whispering "I was lost, but now I'm found and forgiven."
When I say "I am a Christian" I don't speak of this with pride. I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide.
When I say "I am a Christian" I'm not trying to be strong. I'm professing that I'm weak and need His strength to carry on.
When I say "I am a Christian" I'm not bragging of success. I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.
When I say "I am a Christian" I'm not claiming to be perfect. My flaws are far too visible, but God believes I am worth it.
When I say "I am a Christian" I still feel the sting of pain. I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon His name.
When I say "I am a Christian" I'm not holier than thou, I'm just a simple sinner who received God's good grace, somehow!
"A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man should have to seek Him first to find her."
When I say that "I am a Christian," I am not shouting that "I am clean living.
I'm whispering "I was lost, but now I'm found and forgiven."
When I say "I am a Christian" I don't speak of this with pride. I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide.
When I say "I am a Christian" I'm not trying to be strong. I'm professing that I'm weak and need His strength to carry on.
When I say "I am a Christian" I'm not bragging of success. I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.
When I say "I am a Christian" I'm not claiming to be perfect. My flaws are far too visible, but God believes I am worth it.
When I say "I am a Christian" I still feel the sting of pain. I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon His name.
When I say "I am a Christian" I'm not holier than thou, I'm just a simple sinner who received God's good grace, somehow!
Thursday, November 11, 2010
No greater love than to be selfless
When I was in college, I sang a solo for two consecutive years during the Lenten season. The song is entitled “No Greater Love” by Rachael Lampa. But I will admit that I can never claim to have sung such a powerful song with the effortless musicality that Rachael does. Anyway, I’m reminiscent of this song after having had another inspiring devotional moment with my husband this morning. We’ll never understand how great love can be than to willingly lay down our own lives for our friends.
Today’s devotional reading discusses the power and merciful grace of selfless love. As a very self-centered, attention-hoarding individual that I am, selfless love is something I’m still trying to accept and apply in my daily life. I’m blessed to say that my husband standing by me and loving me unconditionally despite my mistakes and past is just a mere fraction of the kind of selfless love God gives to each of His children.
What really speaks to my heart today is the simplicity yet uniquely difficult challenge to give love in a selfless way. After all, I believe God did not create us to love selflessly by nature. How many of us can honestly say our loyalty is gripped by a genuine concern for others…before ourselves? I know in many instances, I cannot claim such a stance. But selfless love in merciful beauty shines through us in so many different ways.
For those animal lovers and pet owners who are guilty of treating our furry friends as equally important as our human companions, you all show a devout sense of selfless love.
For those philanthropists who deeply involve themselves in a cause to benefit the nameless many suffering from a debilitating disease, your efforts publicly display a selfless love.
For those mothers and fathers who work tirelessly ‘round the clock to support their children in their education, health and well-being, it’s no doubt you live selflessly for your child.
For the men and women bravely serving our county, your patriotism through your call of duty exudes a selfless love to the umpteenth degree.
…and so on and so forth…
Selfless love takes on so many different faces and so many different forms. The true beauty of God’s selfless love that He would like us to give to others as He always gives to us can take a lifetime for each of us to wonder why.
But take a moment today and challenge yourself to give and love selflessly. It doesn’t matter how big or how small the gesture may be. Put yourself second and put someone else above your priority. Although we’re not built to naturally do so, there is no greater love that you can show than this.
Today’s devotional reading discusses the power and merciful grace of selfless love. As a very self-centered, attention-hoarding individual that I am, selfless love is something I’m still trying to accept and apply in my daily life. I’m blessed to say that my husband standing by me and loving me unconditionally despite my mistakes and past is just a mere fraction of the kind of selfless love God gives to each of His children.
What really speaks to my heart today is the simplicity yet uniquely difficult challenge to give love in a selfless way. After all, I believe God did not create us to love selflessly by nature. How many of us can honestly say our loyalty is gripped by a genuine concern for others…before ourselves? I know in many instances, I cannot claim such a stance. But selfless love in merciful beauty shines through us in so many different ways.
For those animal lovers and pet owners who are guilty of treating our furry friends as equally important as our human companions, you all show a devout sense of selfless love.
For those philanthropists who deeply involve themselves in a cause to benefit the nameless many suffering from a debilitating disease, your efforts publicly display a selfless love.
For those mothers and fathers who work tirelessly ‘round the clock to support their children in their education, health and well-being, it’s no doubt you live selflessly for your child.
For the men and women bravely serving our county, your patriotism through your call of duty exudes a selfless love to the umpteenth degree.
…and so on and so forth…
Selfless love takes on so many different faces and so many different forms. The true beauty of God’s selfless love that He would like us to give to others as He always gives to us can take a lifetime for each of us to wonder why.
But take a moment today and challenge yourself to give and love selflessly. It doesn’t matter how big or how small the gesture may be. Put yourself second and put someone else above your priority. Although we’re not built to naturally do so, there is no greater love that you can show than this.
Monday, November 8, 2010
Six months down...three more to go!
My husband and I took our "baby bump" pictorials this past weekend. I can't believe I'm six months along in my pregnancy!
We had such an amazing time with our photographer, Rhiannon Lee (www.rhileephotography.com). I thought each moment she captured, whether posed or candid, was just beautifully done. I just have to share them with the world. Thanks, and I hope you enjoy them!
We had such an amazing time with our photographer, Rhiannon Lee (www.rhileephotography.com). I thought each moment she captured, whether posed or candid, was just beautifully done. I just have to share them with the world. Thanks, and I hope you enjoy them!
The greatest gift
I have a journal that I jot down the verses in scripture that seem most compelling to my life and this journey I’ve chosen to take. I just skimmed through it and stumbled upon my notes from the Our Daily Bread devotional on July 15th. Psalm 71 was the featured reading, and today it speaks so loudly to my heart.
My husband and I are blessed to be experiencing this new life growing within me. It’s been a healthy pregnancy thus far, and I pray God continues to protect Baby and me. I’ve written in a previous post that this pregnancy came as a shock. Although my husband and I have been trying to become pregnant since we miscarried back in January, it was a huge surprise to realize God wanted to give us a new life in our marriage right now. Truly it happened in HIS time…not in our own.
I believe this pregnancy came to us now as both my husband and I, for the first time, are going out of our way to seek spiritual guidance and wisdom. Never before have we cared so much to work towards a righteous Christian life. Ever since we decided to follow this challenging path, the rewards have been so great.
But I must admit the greatest gift of all is not just this pregnancy. I believe God’s greatest gift is the opportunity He’s given us to pass along the lessons learned to our precious baby. I believe the timing was strategically planned to allow us to see a miracle performed before our very eyes. There is no perfect time to have a baby…but there is perfection in God’s perfect plan and timing. It’s a miracle we became pregnant when we did…so soon after painfully losing our first baby-to-be.
Today we’re still facing challenges and victories within married life, family life, church life and social life. But in everything we overcome as well as every joy we’re blessed to experience, there is always a spiritual lesson learned. Each lesson can and should be handed down to the next generation. We were put in such a place to live, love, lose, learn and then to spread the good Word that binds all experiences to one sole purpose – to realize our life is not our own.
I’m so thankful for this beautiful pregnancy because I know it’s my calling as a mother-to-be to equip this baby with moral values, spiritual wisdom, hope and faith in God’s ultimate plan. As Christ followers, we’re all called to spread God’s miraculous powers to the younger generations. As soon-to-be parents, it’s our choosing to answer that call.
My husband and I are blessed to be experiencing this new life growing within me. It’s been a healthy pregnancy thus far, and I pray God continues to protect Baby and me. I’ve written in a previous post that this pregnancy came as a shock. Although my husband and I have been trying to become pregnant since we miscarried back in January, it was a huge surprise to realize God wanted to give us a new life in our marriage right now. Truly it happened in HIS time…not in our own.
I believe this pregnancy came to us now as both my husband and I, for the first time, are going out of our way to seek spiritual guidance and wisdom. Never before have we cared so much to work towards a righteous Christian life. Ever since we decided to follow this challenging path, the rewards have been so great.
But I must admit the greatest gift of all is not just this pregnancy. I believe God’s greatest gift is the opportunity He’s given us to pass along the lessons learned to our precious baby. I believe the timing was strategically planned to allow us to see a miracle performed before our very eyes. There is no perfect time to have a baby…but there is perfection in God’s perfect plan and timing. It’s a miracle we became pregnant when we did…so soon after painfully losing our first baby-to-be.
Today we’re still facing challenges and victories within married life, family life, church life and social life. But in everything we overcome as well as every joy we’re blessed to experience, there is always a spiritual lesson learned. Each lesson can and should be handed down to the next generation. We were put in such a place to live, love, lose, learn and then to spread the good Word that binds all experiences to one sole purpose – to realize our life is not our own.
I’m so thankful for this beautiful pregnancy because I know it’s my calling as a mother-to-be to equip this baby with moral values, spiritual wisdom, hope and faith in God’s ultimate plan. As Christ followers, we’re all called to spread God’s miraculous powers to the younger generations. As soon-to-be parents, it’s our choosing to answer that call.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Singlehood
My alarm wakes me up every morning, and yes, I’m guilty of snoozing it. Instead of music blaring to get me out of bed, I have the tuner set to Christian talk radio. Yesterday morning I heard a message that made it hard for me to fall back asleep. The message was in regards to being single and finding the perfect spouse. I know a few single men and women who are searching for their life partners. These folks are still praying and looking for the perfect mate they can grow old with.
My heart goes out to those who I believe are good, God-fearing people but just can’t find the right person to share their life with. What struck me was when I heard that single men/women are believed to find their perfect mate when serving the Lord. From what I understand, if you’re in a capacity of serving the Lord, then you’ll successfully find the ONE.
For those who are single and seeking with faith that God has your perfect mate already lined up, heed these words. You will find your mate when serving the Lord…in whatever capacity that may be.
My heart goes out to those who I believe are good, God-fearing people but just can’t find the right person to share their life with. What struck me was when I heard that single men/women are believed to find their perfect mate when serving the Lord. From what I understand, if you’re in a capacity of serving the Lord, then you’ll successfully find the ONE.
For those who are single and seeking with faith that God has your perfect mate already lined up, heed these words. You will find your mate when serving the Lord…in whatever capacity that may be.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Manny Pacquiao vs Antonio Margarito - Nov. 13th Cowboys Stadium
We’re doing a raffle prize drawing for a pair of tickets to the Manny Pacquiao vs Antonio Margarito boxing event at Cowboys Stadium in Arlington on Saturday, Nov. 13th. Each raffle ticket costs $25 and you can enter as many times as you want. The more tickets you purchase, the greater your chances are of winning. The total value for the pair of tickets is $223.56. The seats are located in Section 129, Row 3 seats 5 and 6.
Once again, you can enter to win this pair of tickets for only $25…while also helping a great cause! With each raffle entry, 100% of the proceeds will benefit Umphress Road UMC’s Building Project Fund. If you’re interested to purchase a raffle ticket, you can pay by cash or check made payable to Umphress Rd UMC. For further payment instructions, please see contact info below:
Stanley Ignacio, Jr. (signaciojr@gmail.com)
-OR-
Rowena Ignacio (rignacio121@gmail.com) or facebook.com/rowena.s.ignacio
Deadline to enter is Wednesday, Nov. 10th at 5pm. The winner will be selected at random during Wednesday worship service at Umphress on Nov. 10th.
God bless, and Go Pacman!
Saturday, October 23, 2010
I am second - Josh Hamilton's riveting story
I praise and thank God for the role models we have in this great country. Congrats to the Texas Rangers for making history. In case you're living under a rock, the Rangers are heading to the World Series for the first time in their franchise history. Amazing!
Have you heard of the advertising campaign entitled, "I am second?" Josh Hamilton plays left field/center field for the Rangers. He's a phenomenal athlete. But did you know he's a devout and publicly practicing Christian?
To hear his testimony and to now understand how he got to the pinnacle of his baseball career blows my mind. His life was hellish at one point during bouts of his sinful addictions. God gave him the greatest adversity so he had no other choice but to seek God for help and for guidance. Leaving a life of sin after having lost his parents in a fatal car accident and temporarily losing his ability to play baseball, Hamilton had no other choice but to look up for the answers to his life.
Last night, he showed spiritual humility in his post-game victory interview. He admits and believes that his success is not his own. For without God's grace, he wouldn't be where he is today. The success in his baseball career is not because of his performance. It's simply because he recognizes his gifts and talents are all being used for a greater purpose. I have goosebumps after learning what God had in store for Hamilton in order to make him rely on nothing but His love. Look where he is now.
Lord, help us all to realize our potential by understanding that it's not about us in the greatness of our accomplishments. After all, we all come second to your greater love and awesome power.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Wisdom in the company you keep
My husband and I were talking about how friends in our lives handle devastating news. There are those friends who put aside their own feelings to offer their help and comfort to a soul in need. Then there are those friends who can’t see past what’s in it for them and choose to cause further harm rather than selflessly help when faced with adversity.
Have you been blessed by a friend who makes the effort to see you in the way God intended for you to be…despite whatever wrongs you’ve committed? Do you have a friend who patiently gets on their knees to pray with you while asking God to change your heart or wrongful ways? Do you have a friend who walks beside you in your life journey unconditionally not expecting anything in it for them? If you have that friend, then you are BLESSED! They are the ones to cherish and although you may never be able to repay them for their kindness, just ask God to somehow return the favor.
Have you been blessed by a friend who makes the effort to see you in the way God intended for you to be…despite whatever wrongs you’ve committed? Do you have a friend who patiently gets on their knees to pray with you while asking God to change your heart or wrongful ways? Do you have a friend who walks beside you in your life journey unconditionally not expecting anything in it for them? If you have that friend, then you are BLESSED! They are the ones to cherish and although you may never be able to repay them for their kindness, just ask God to somehow return the favor.
I talk the big talk
Once again, daily devotionals humbled me completely. Yesterday’s Our Daily Bread devotional put me in my place. For those that know me, words are my life. I love words…I love strong words that they leave a lasting impression to the reader or audience. Not only do I love words in written form, but I talk the big talk. I’m sure people perceive me as arrogant and overly prideful in my daily word choice. People who enjoy simplicity don’t find that’s the case in my method of marketing communications. But believe me…I really just have a love of strong words!
In the sense of ministry, I’ve been reminded time and again that God doesn’t care for our excellence of speech by any means. Yesterday’s devotional discussed avoiding “lofty language” to elevate self-importance. In Paul’s letter to the Corinthians (1 Corinthians 2:1,), he wrote that “when I came to you, [I] did not come with excellence of speech or of wisdom declaring to you the testimony of God.” Paul was a great man.
Last Sunday, I was the liturgist at Umphress Rd UMC. It was overwhelming because I had never been up at the altar reading aloud to the congregation. When I was asked to be liturgist, I was told I was a strong candidate for the position since my public speaking presence could be used to serve the Lord. I must admit, I was flattered and relied on my own sense of pride and confidence when speaking to a crowd. I figured, the Lord will carry me through this because He’s blessed me with the gift of communication and words.
It wasn’t until 30 minutes before I had to face the congregation was I truly humbled. Pastor reminded me that I should not feel overwhelmed to serve the Lord as liturgist because all I’m called to do is invite the congregation to worship Him. It wasn’t my job to speak lofty language nor was it my responsibility to speak with the most eloquent words to grab everyone’s attention. All I had to do was invite others as a call to worship in His name. I took Pastor’s instructions to heart and set aside my natural tendencies. I didn’t try to be MRS. PERSONALITY while at the altar. I did not try to hype up my presence in front of everyone. I humbled myself, read only what was in front of me and in the Bible and reminded myself of why God called me there.
I was then so honored to be asked to share His word in the most simplest of ways. I was calm and not overly energetic as I usually am when in front of a crowd. I remembered it was all about the heart of worship…not about me or my love of words. My simple love of Christ and will to be used were all that I had to pull me through…and I believe the Holy Spirit worked through me and in me. For the first time, my prayer and presence weren't intended to change people's reaction to me. Instead, I was humbled enough to change myself by letting go and letting God work inside.
The words we speak may indicate
A heart that’s filled with pride;
But godly self-control displays
The Spirit’s work inside. — Sper
In the sense of ministry, I’ve been reminded time and again that God doesn’t care for our excellence of speech by any means. Yesterday’s devotional discussed avoiding “lofty language” to elevate self-importance. In Paul’s letter to the Corinthians (1 Corinthians 2:1,), he wrote that “when I came to you, [I] did not come with excellence of speech or of wisdom declaring to you the testimony of God.” Paul was a great man.
Last Sunday, I was the liturgist at Umphress Rd UMC. It was overwhelming because I had never been up at the altar reading aloud to the congregation. When I was asked to be liturgist, I was told I was a strong candidate for the position since my public speaking presence could be used to serve the Lord. I must admit, I was flattered and relied on my own sense of pride and confidence when speaking to a crowd. I figured, the Lord will carry me through this because He’s blessed me with the gift of communication and words.
It wasn’t until 30 minutes before I had to face the congregation was I truly humbled. Pastor reminded me that I should not feel overwhelmed to serve the Lord as liturgist because all I’m called to do is invite the congregation to worship Him. It wasn’t my job to speak lofty language nor was it my responsibility to speak with the most eloquent words to grab everyone’s attention. All I had to do was invite others as a call to worship in His name. I took Pastor’s instructions to heart and set aside my natural tendencies. I didn’t try to be MRS. PERSONALITY while at the altar. I did not try to hype up my presence in front of everyone. I humbled myself, read only what was in front of me and in the Bible and reminded myself of why God called me there.
I was then so honored to be asked to share His word in the most simplest of ways. I was calm and not overly energetic as I usually am when in front of a crowd. I remembered it was all about the heart of worship…not about me or my love of words. My simple love of Christ and will to be used were all that I had to pull me through…and I believe the Holy Spirit worked through me and in me. For the first time, my prayer and presence weren't intended to change people's reaction to me. Instead, I was humbled enough to change myself by letting go and letting God work inside.
The words we speak may indicate
A heart that’s filled with pride;
But godly self-control displays
The Spirit’s work inside. — Sper
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Believe in God because He believes in you
I firmly believe our paths have been predetermined by God. I believe we’re all called to be great to glorify the one God who intended for us all to be great. But I must remind myself that my own standards of greatness mean nothing. God is the judge and only He can lead me towards greatness if in my heart of hearts I let Him lead. I must remember to let go and let God!
"Lord, keep us faithful to Your Word,
Although, at times, we might rephrase;
And help us never twist its truths
To justify our selfish ways." —Sper
Our Daily Bread Devotional Oct. 16, 2010
In past years, I have made poor decisions and have become complacent in certain lifestyle situations. But I’m learning, growing and finally realizing humility and faithful perseverance are vital in every decision I make from here on out. Although I’m blessed to know where I want to go, it’s not enough to believe in myself. I must believe in God because He believes in me!
"Lord, keep us faithful to Your Word,
Although, at times, we might rephrase;
And help us never twist its truths
To justify our selfish ways." —Sper
Our Daily Bread Devotional Oct. 16, 2010
In past years, I have made poor decisions and have become complacent in certain lifestyle situations. But I’m learning, growing and finally realizing humility and faithful perseverance are vital in every decision I make from here on out. Although I’m blessed to know where I want to go, it’s not enough to believe in myself. I must believe in God because He believes in me!
Getting things done!
"A great life is not a matter of chance but a matter of consistently making great choices."
This is an incredible mantra. I just had to copy and paste this quote from someone I admire on a personal and professional level. I have mentioned in previous posts that every lifestyle is a choice. We are where we are today because of the spiritual, personal and professional choices we have made. Are you happy with where you’re at? Are you proud of the choices you’ve made? Are you choosing to make the most of every opportunity you’re blessed with?
Mary Kay’s legendary “getting things done” method is simple and quite practical. At the beginning of each day, make time to list out the top 6 most important things you MUST get done. This way, the day ahead shouldn’t overwhelm you when you’ve prioritized things that you cannot creatively avoid. Think of the satisfaction gained when the business day has yet to end, but you’ve already accomplished necessary assignments no matter how major or tedious they may have seemed.
In the words of Mark Twain, we must all remember, “There is nothing that cannot happen today." But it’s up to you to make that choice and make the most of your day. Choose to get ‘er done, folks! Get ‘er done!
This is an incredible mantra. I just had to copy and paste this quote from someone I admire on a personal and professional level. I have mentioned in previous posts that every lifestyle is a choice. We are where we are today because of the spiritual, personal and professional choices we have made. Are you happy with where you’re at? Are you proud of the choices you’ve made? Are you choosing to make the most of every opportunity you’re blessed with?
Mary Kay’s legendary “getting things done” method is simple and quite practical. At the beginning of each day, make time to list out the top 6 most important things you MUST get done. This way, the day ahead shouldn’t overwhelm you when you’ve prioritized things that you cannot creatively avoid. Think of the satisfaction gained when the business day has yet to end, but you’ve already accomplished necessary assignments no matter how major or tedious they may have seemed.
In the words of Mark Twain, we must all remember, “There is nothing that cannot happen today." But it’s up to you to make that choice and make the most of your day. Choose to get ‘er done, folks! Get ‘er done!
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Don't be complacent!
For the past few evenings, my husband and I have turned off the TV to talk about our faith journeys, our marriage and our precious baby Isaac on the way. I brought up my pent up frustrations with my own success and potential. For those that know me, I’ve always said “you’re going to see my name in lights someday.” I still believe that will one day come true.
But the frustration comes from not knowing God’s purpose for the gifts and talents He’s given me. I want to be used by Him to do something great. I can’t deny that I have a resume of professional capacities that some could see as great. But for the hungry ambition that continues to boil within me, none of it has been great enough. But that’s by my own standards, and perhaps that’s where I’m going wrong. I’m realizing to do great and to be great, it’s NOT about ME! I’ve mentioned time and again, it’s about everyone I can help along the way.
Mary Kay believed women can enrich themselves by enriching others. In my independently owned business, I cannot get to the top without bringing someone up there with me. The efforts of generosity and philanthropy in the Mary Kay world should never be underestimated. I LOVE MK’s ideology and will ensure it thrives within my business acumen.
But I sadly admit to my husband, Mary Kay is not how I want to see myself succeed on this unprecedented level ‘m reaching for. I’m still searching for the way God will use this special gift He’s given me.
I am NOT complacent, and I pray I never will be. I believe complacency breeds an idle mind. Complacency is detrimental in any work environment or voluntary effort. I’ve mentioned my husband and I are involved in helping the church he grew up in. This church community is predominately Filipino-based. It’s a blessing to be surrounded by my cultural roots, but it’s also a hindrance.
I am PROUD to be a Filipina, but I’m NOT proud of Filipinos. It’s a sad and harsh fact to realize. Time and time again, I’ve been surrounded by this sense of complacency. It’s almost as if I’ve been raised to work to get by rather than work hard to achieve more. When I was juggling my more than full-time job at Mark Cuban Co’s while working my Mary Kay business, my mom told me I shouldn’t be working so hard. That conversation will NEVER escape me. I couldn’t believe how she chose to show her concern for my well-being. Then looking back over my life, I’ve been raised in the same mindset. Work to get you by, but don’t work your tail off if it’s not necessary. I was encouraged to use my talents to get me by but was never pushed to take it to the next level. Thanks to my upbringing, I never saw my true potential realized in several instances. I didn’t know to choose to live otherwise. Complacency got me nowhere!
Back to the church, I was in a rather troubling discussion with other members who happen to be of Filipino descent. In a conversation about building a new church, I was appalled by the reactions of other members. People stepped up to admit they haven’t done enough in their assigned roles. But they were sure to say they have a will to help and they want to be used to do God’s work. Well that’s only half of the battle!
It’s great they have a will to donate their time and efforts, but something else is keeping them from achieving more. They’re so complacent in their excuses. Some had said they cannot do more because they don’t know how to do more. Some had even said they blame their cultural upbringing on their hindrance to achieve more. I heard excuses like, “In the Philippines, we were never raised to help lead the church. We were just raised to attend church and we relied on the nameless few to run the business of our place of worship.” With that sense of complacency, they never cared to step up and figure out how they can do more to help. So now, they rest their laurels on that cultural ideology.
I see within our group there is a will to help the church now but no ambition to further their service out of their cultural comfort zone. Now please don’t misunderstand me. I’m not putting my own culture down. I’m sharing this brutally harsh observation in hopes that it will create change or some form of motivation to get out of the depths of complacency.
Then I look at myself and what I’ve achieved or have yet to succeed in. I’ve been the exact same way! I did what it took to get me by in Mary Kay, but I didn’t push myself to achieve so much more that was within my grasp. I didn’t choose to achieve more. I was comfortable with the accolades, the money and the recognition. But I wasn’t comfortable enough to do the uncomfortable to get me to super-stardom level in my own business. I’m completely disgusted with myself! I have the choice to enrich myself by enriching others, yet I have stumbled into my own sense of complacency.
But here is what sets me apart from the many complacent Filipinos. I know I have a God-given gift to share with others. I know my life is not my own to control and if I continually ask Him to guide me in the right direction, I will be used to my fullest potential to achieve what so many are willing to seek but not willing to do the hard work for. I have several ongoing projects and plans that I pray will come to fruition if in His plan for me. It will be a bumpy road and only my faith and perseverance can pull me through. I have to stop myself from just getting by and really push myself to do what’s uncomfortable for now.
It’s easy to set goals and to dream big. It’s even easier to make excuses as to why that dream has to be put on hold. I cannot be scared to step up and do the work that seems unnatural. I must rise to the challenge but cannot rely on myself to get the job done. It is Christ who strengthens me in all things and it is Christ who will never lead me astray. As long as I seek Him for guidance, my own perseverance will kick in. I just may surprise myself (and everyone around me) that I am capable of achieving so much more.
But the frustration comes from not knowing God’s purpose for the gifts and talents He’s given me. I want to be used by Him to do something great. I can’t deny that I have a resume of professional capacities that some could see as great. But for the hungry ambition that continues to boil within me, none of it has been great enough. But that’s by my own standards, and perhaps that’s where I’m going wrong. I’m realizing to do great and to be great, it’s NOT about ME! I’ve mentioned time and again, it’s about everyone I can help along the way.
Mary Kay believed women can enrich themselves by enriching others. In my independently owned business, I cannot get to the top without bringing someone up there with me. The efforts of generosity and philanthropy in the Mary Kay world should never be underestimated. I LOVE MK’s ideology and will ensure it thrives within my business acumen.
But I sadly admit to my husband, Mary Kay is not how I want to see myself succeed on this unprecedented level ‘m reaching for. I’m still searching for the way God will use this special gift He’s given me.
I am NOT complacent, and I pray I never will be. I believe complacency breeds an idle mind. Complacency is detrimental in any work environment or voluntary effort. I’ve mentioned my husband and I are involved in helping the church he grew up in. This church community is predominately Filipino-based. It’s a blessing to be surrounded by my cultural roots, but it’s also a hindrance.
I am PROUD to be a Filipina, but I’m NOT proud of Filipinos. It’s a sad and harsh fact to realize. Time and time again, I’ve been surrounded by this sense of complacency. It’s almost as if I’ve been raised to work to get by rather than work hard to achieve more. When I was juggling my more than full-time job at Mark Cuban Co’s while working my Mary Kay business, my mom told me I shouldn’t be working so hard. That conversation will NEVER escape me. I couldn’t believe how she chose to show her concern for my well-being. Then looking back over my life, I’ve been raised in the same mindset. Work to get you by, but don’t work your tail off if it’s not necessary. I was encouraged to use my talents to get me by but was never pushed to take it to the next level. Thanks to my upbringing, I never saw my true potential realized in several instances. I didn’t know to choose to live otherwise. Complacency got me nowhere!
Back to the church, I was in a rather troubling discussion with other members who happen to be of Filipino descent. In a conversation about building a new church, I was appalled by the reactions of other members. People stepped up to admit they haven’t done enough in their assigned roles. But they were sure to say they have a will to help and they want to be used to do God’s work. Well that’s only half of the battle!
It’s great they have a will to donate their time and efforts, but something else is keeping them from achieving more. They’re so complacent in their excuses. Some had said they cannot do more because they don’t know how to do more. Some had even said they blame their cultural upbringing on their hindrance to achieve more. I heard excuses like, “In the Philippines, we were never raised to help lead the church. We were just raised to attend church and we relied on the nameless few to run the business of our place of worship.” With that sense of complacency, they never cared to step up and figure out how they can do more to help. So now, they rest their laurels on that cultural ideology.
I see within our group there is a will to help the church now but no ambition to further their service out of their cultural comfort zone. Now please don’t misunderstand me. I’m not putting my own culture down. I’m sharing this brutally harsh observation in hopes that it will create change or some form of motivation to get out of the depths of complacency.
Then I look at myself and what I’ve achieved or have yet to succeed in. I’ve been the exact same way! I did what it took to get me by in Mary Kay, but I didn’t push myself to achieve so much more that was within my grasp. I didn’t choose to achieve more. I was comfortable with the accolades, the money and the recognition. But I wasn’t comfortable enough to do the uncomfortable to get me to super-stardom level in my own business. I’m completely disgusted with myself! I have the choice to enrich myself by enriching others, yet I have stumbled into my own sense of complacency.
But here is what sets me apart from the many complacent Filipinos. I know I have a God-given gift to share with others. I know my life is not my own to control and if I continually ask Him to guide me in the right direction, I will be used to my fullest potential to achieve what so many are willing to seek but not willing to do the hard work for. I have several ongoing projects and plans that I pray will come to fruition if in His plan for me. It will be a bumpy road and only my faith and perseverance can pull me through. I have to stop myself from just getting by and really push myself to do what’s uncomfortable for now.
It’s easy to set goals and to dream big. It’s even easier to make excuses as to why that dream has to be put on hold. I cannot be scared to step up and do the work that seems unnatural. I must rise to the challenge but cannot rely on myself to get the job done. It is Christ who strengthens me in all things and it is Christ who will never lead me astray. As long as I seek Him for guidance, my own perseverance will kick in. I just may surprise myself (and everyone around me) that I am capable of achieving so much more.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
A very productive lunch
I had the most delectable and productive lunch with my amazing mother-in-law. We didn't talk about our usual topics of conversations. Instead, we began brainstorming ways to collaborate and apply God-given talents for the benefit of others. If we are to actually pursue her action plan, the main objective would be to help groups of people find stable income so they can provide for their families with less financial worries or economic uncertainties.
My mother-in-law is an incredible human being with a soulful desire to help anyone in need. She presented a business idea to me that completely blew me away. I of course cannot share in detail what her plan is just yet. She still needs to hone in on her focus. But I'm proud to say, we actually put a business plan on paper and have assumed deadline dates for action items that will not only keep her motivated but will hold her accountable. (So many of us dream big but never follow it up with action.) She's graciously involving me in her business ideas. It's an honor to know she trusts me with her vision for this rather audacious plan.
Although the business plan is still in its infancy, I truly believe in what she's trying to accomplish. Let me just share the kind of person that she is and how we can all learn from her selflessness. She's been cooking up ideas to help people she knows who are financially unstable and who have an urgent need to care for their family. Over a delicious lunch of fried pork chops and sesame seed oiled-snow peas, we discussed how her business will help so many people in need. The business isn't about how much she can profit. Again, her goal is to help as many people as she possibly can. She's willing to venture out beyond her medical expertise to the foreign world of entrepreneurship. She'll put herself out there by taking and assuming all associated risks. This is her venture, her sacrifice, her blood, her sweat and her tears for the benefit of others. She's just putting what blessings God has bestowed upon her to good use. Believe me...she wants nothing more than to bring others to the very tip top.
She doesn't care for profit margins nor does she care for fame or prestige. She just wants to help people in a very unique way. In fact, it's so unique, I don't think this particular idea has been attempted in this geographical area. She has me salivating at just the thought. I of course see financial success as a potential reward. But she doesn't. Again, profits are not what matter to her. All she kept going on an on about is how many people she can help along the way.
With her attitude, creativity, spirituality, and her heart of philanthropy, I have all of the faith that she will succeed in more ways than she can even fathom. She understands that in order to make anything of yourself, you must be willing to help those in need. It seems as if this business would be her most exceptional form of giving back to the community she already so selflessly gives to.
Most people are inclined to do the work because there's something in it for them. Not my mother-in-law. She wants to do the work because there's so much in it for everyone around her. To me, reaching that pinnacle is the ultimate joy we're all meant to achieve. But there aren't many like her who will seize the opportunity to experience such a great and immeasurable reward.
I am going to help her get this idea off the ground and running. Praise God I have the time and resources to help. But first, there's a lot of work and more brainstorming to be done. Stay tuned...if it's in God's plan, this truly will happen and will be a story worth following.
My mother-in-law is an incredible human being with a soulful desire to help anyone in need. She presented a business idea to me that completely blew me away. I of course cannot share in detail what her plan is just yet. She still needs to hone in on her focus. But I'm proud to say, we actually put a business plan on paper and have assumed deadline dates for action items that will not only keep her motivated but will hold her accountable. (So many of us dream big but never follow it up with action.) She's graciously involving me in her business ideas. It's an honor to know she trusts me with her vision for this rather audacious plan.
Although the business plan is still in its infancy, I truly believe in what she's trying to accomplish. Let me just share the kind of person that she is and how we can all learn from her selflessness. She's been cooking up ideas to help people she knows who are financially unstable and who have an urgent need to care for their family. Over a delicious lunch of fried pork chops and sesame seed oiled-snow peas, we discussed how her business will help so many people in need. The business isn't about how much she can profit. Again, her goal is to help as many people as she possibly can. She's willing to venture out beyond her medical expertise to the foreign world of entrepreneurship. She'll put herself out there by taking and assuming all associated risks. This is her venture, her sacrifice, her blood, her sweat and her tears for the benefit of others. She's just putting what blessings God has bestowed upon her to good use. Believe me...she wants nothing more than to bring others to the very tip top.
She doesn't care for profit margins nor does she care for fame or prestige. She just wants to help people in a very unique way. In fact, it's so unique, I don't think this particular idea has been attempted in this geographical area. She has me salivating at just the thought. I of course see financial success as a potential reward. But she doesn't. Again, profits are not what matter to her. All she kept going on an on about is how many people she can help along the way.
With her attitude, creativity, spirituality, and her heart of philanthropy, I have all of the faith that she will succeed in more ways than she can even fathom. She understands that in order to make anything of yourself, you must be willing to help those in need. It seems as if this business would be her most exceptional form of giving back to the community she already so selflessly gives to.
Most people are inclined to do the work because there's something in it for them. Not my mother-in-law. She wants to do the work because there's so much in it for everyone around her. To me, reaching that pinnacle is the ultimate joy we're all meant to achieve. But there aren't many like her who will seize the opportunity to experience such a great and immeasurable reward.
I am going to help her get this idea off the ground and running. Praise God I have the time and resources to help. But first, there's a lot of work and more brainstorming to be done. Stay tuned...if it's in God's plan, this truly will happen and will be a story worth following.
Self-Image
I've been thinking a lot lately about self-image, particularly because my body morphs everyday during this pregnancy. Surely we all have external imperfections we wish could have been bigger, smaller, prettier or just different than how God made us. But after watching a documentary that candidly depicted the sad tales of women whose decision to pursue plastic surgery went awry, I can't help but feel bad for them.
For the record, I don't feel bad that they're in the state of depression or "suffering" in their post-surgical days. I feel bad that they never found the inner strength or inner beauty within themselves to squash superficial desires to enhance their body parts. Let me also state that these women chronicled in the documentary were already drop-dead gorgeous. One woman is an athletic trainer and model by trade. The other woman is a model in Las Vegas. Both are naturally blessed in beauty and physique. But with as much as they had, they wanted something else.
The terrible truth is that these two young women are not happy with the first round of plastic surgery they had done. The athletic trainer was suffering from debilitating ailments caused by her breast implants. The Vegas model hated her "Pinocchio" nose job.
Cameras followed these women around to show how their post-surgical dissatisfaction affected their everyday living. Towards the end of the segment, they both opted to have a second surgical procedure even with uncertainties that the problems they're dealing with will ever get fixed...for the better or for the worse. They both took a gamble and another huge health risk.
After both surgeries were performed, they both immediately felt relief and excitement with their results. Then as weeks went by, each woman became even more unhappy with what they were left with. The athletic trainer had her health and life back but was flat-chested. The Vegas model corrected her Pinocchio nose, but let the influence of others' opinions overcome how happy she initially was after the second surgery.
Moral of the story, these girls were never happy with their beautiful bodies to begin with. They further altered and risked disfiguring their natural features to find happiness and contentment. I believe they never found it because they never had the appreciation for their self-image from the get go.
There's a breed of people who go through life wishing to change what they've been blessed with. They then surgically make a change and are still left unsatisfied. What will it take to make them happy? Why not seek alternative measures to find true joy and happiness with self-image? If you have nice legs, show 'em off all year round and feel great about the stares and compliments you get. If you have a beautifully clear complexion, let it shine through your smile and look people squarely in the eyes so they can see your flawless radiant glow. They call you Mr. Personality because you're so "ugly." Then infect people with your charm and wit so that everyone would feel so lucky to be your friend. Trust me, there are ways to dig down deep and count the many beautiful blessings you have on your beautiful body. Count your blessings and let those overcome any superficial insecurities.
Self-image is quite the beast to conquer. I struggle like any other woman. But I would never change what God intended to give me. I'm proud to say I am happy and securely accept what I've got...and keepin' it real is the greatest compliment I can give to my Creator.
For the record, I don't feel bad that they're in the state of depression or "suffering" in their post-surgical days. I feel bad that they never found the inner strength or inner beauty within themselves to squash superficial desires to enhance their body parts. Let me also state that these women chronicled in the documentary were already drop-dead gorgeous. One woman is an athletic trainer and model by trade. The other woman is a model in Las Vegas. Both are naturally blessed in beauty and physique. But with as much as they had, they wanted something else.
The terrible truth is that these two young women are not happy with the first round of plastic surgery they had done. The athletic trainer was suffering from debilitating ailments caused by her breast implants. The Vegas model hated her "Pinocchio" nose job.
Cameras followed these women around to show how their post-surgical dissatisfaction affected their everyday living. Towards the end of the segment, they both opted to have a second surgical procedure even with uncertainties that the problems they're dealing with will ever get fixed...for the better or for the worse. They both took a gamble and another huge health risk.
After both surgeries were performed, they both immediately felt relief and excitement with their results. Then as weeks went by, each woman became even more unhappy with what they were left with. The athletic trainer had her health and life back but was flat-chested. The Vegas model corrected her Pinocchio nose, but let the influence of others' opinions overcome how happy she initially was after the second surgery.
Moral of the story, these girls were never happy with their beautiful bodies to begin with. They further altered and risked disfiguring their natural features to find happiness and contentment. I believe they never found it because they never had the appreciation for their self-image from the get go.
There's a breed of people who go through life wishing to change what they've been blessed with. They then surgically make a change and are still left unsatisfied. What will it take to make them happy? Why not seek alternative measures to find true joy and happiness with self-image? If you have nice legs, show 'em off all year round and feel great about the stares and compliments you get. If you have a beautifully clear complexion, let it shine through your smile and look people squarely in the eyes so they can see your flawless radiant glow. They call you Mr. Personality because you're so "ugly." Then infect people with your charm and wit so that everyone would feel so lucky to be your friend. Trust me, there are ways to dig down deep and count the many beautiful blessings you have on your beautiful body. Count your blessings and let those overcome any superficial insecurities.
Self-image is quite the beast to conquer. I struggle like any other woman. But I would never change what God intended to give me. I'm proud to say I am happy and securely accept what I've got...and keepin' it real is the greatest compliment I can give to my Creator.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Seek wisdom and see what happens!
Today's Our Daily Bread daily devotional had another message that spoke to my heart. I can relate to today's biblical theme with my current life situation. We as Christians should reflect on the following thought, "God gives peace to those who are quiet before him."
In his own interpretation, my husband so beautifully broke it down for me...from his heart, through his wisdom and in his own eloquently simple words. My husband reminds me that there's too much noise coming in and going out all around us. We're surrounded by so many unimportant things every waking moment. But in the quietness of the very moment when we choose to drown out all worldly ruckus, only then can we truly come to know God and His awesome presence and almighty powers.
I must admit, 2010 has been THE most challenging year of my entire life with demands for spiritual growth in my marriage. As a living testimony to our faith, my husband and I have decided to drown out the noise, minimize the clutter, throw out the garbage and purposefully avoid negative distractions from our focus. We do everything we can to keep our eyes on HIM. But for those who know or for those who don't know what we've had to endure this past year, you may never understand how daunting of a task it has been to silence everything and everyone who don't matter.
I picked up a book my husband has been reading by Larry Lea entitled, "Wisdom - Don't Live Life Without It." Ever since my husband has made wisdom one of his main prayer requests, so much has changed for us...and for the better. He teaches me to never lose focus on the mere fact that God is always working. He works through your pain, through your pleasure and most especially when you don't realize He is working. My husband's spiritual wisdom astonishes me. He has matured into this man of God with a razor-sharp focus on the cross. He tells me he doesn't have superpowers, although to many who know him, we all seem to think he does. But there's no such thing. He tells me he lives life searching for more wisdom, no matter how intense the situation may be. In his wisdom, faith surely follows with a peace that somehow surpasses his own understanding.
Through the gift of wisdom as Lea ingeniously explains in his book, we've learned the why's and who's when it comes to silencing the unnecessarily loud noise. People will always find something to gather and gossip about. People who don't care for you to succeed will somehow find a way to bring you down to their misery. The hypocrites will stop at nothing to destroy their neighbor and its only those who lack wisdom that go out of their way to despise their neighbors. It's so sad, but you see it as the truth in every social circle you may have. We're salaciously human...everything worldly is what we so naturally adhere to.
My husband and I have lived, loved, and lost in the most extreme sense this past year. When it was so much easier to let the resounding noise of senseless negativity and defeat overcome our hope in God's second chances and new beginnings, we chose to trample through the clutter with Christ-seeking hearts. When anyone would try to bring us down, we kept each other focused on what only God knows we need...not by anyone's expectations or by their worldly standards. We seem to come together holding hands taking the road less traveled.
With as much as God have given us to persevere through, my husband constantly reminds me that in every situation, good or bad, there should be JOY that follows. There is no sense for preparing ourselves for disappointment when looking at the treacherous road ahead. Once we silence the world, keep our eyes focused and make the effort to follow Christ in his teachings, only then can we truly know God in all of his glory.
I must say there were times I thought I deserved so much more than what I got. There were times when I thought what I was given was way too much to handle. But thankfully, my husband is always next to me reminding me that joy is soon to follow. Now look at where we are today. Never in a million years did I think our marriage would be so blessed. Never did I think we could have so much to celebrate than we do now. Despite the chaos of this year and having to force ourselves to drown out the noise, God was always working on something so great. I praise God for our prayers have been answered. I am 16 weeks PREGNANT and have never felt so strong, so loved and so convicted in my 28 years of life. God is giving us the miracle of a new life. We're going to be parents very, very soon. Praise God, we seek for spiritual wisdom to carry us through it all. Now, as soon-to-be parents, it's our calling to share what wisdom we've gained with our baby-to-be so that Baby can also know just how great God truly is.
In his own interpretation, my husband so beautifully broke it down for me...from his heart, through his wisdom and in his own eloquently simple words. My husband reminds me that there's too much noise coming in and going out all around us. We're surrounded by so many unimportant things every waking moment. But in the quietness of the very moment when we choose to drown out all worldly ruckus, only then can we truly come to know God and His awesome presence and almighty powers.
I must admit, 2010 has been THE most challenging year of my entire life with demands for spiritual growth in my marriage. As a living testimony to our faith, my husband and I have decided to drown out the noise, minimize the clutter, throw out the garbage and purposefully avoid negative distractions from our focus. We do everything we can to keep our eyes on HIM. But for those who know or for those who don't know what we've had to endure this past year, you may never understand how daunting of a task it has been to silence everything and everyone who don't matter.
I picked up a book my husband has been reading by Larry Lea entitled, "Wisdom - Don't Live Life Without It." Ever since my husband has made wisdom one of his main prayer requests, so much has changed for us...and for the better. He teaches me to never lose focus on the mere fact that God is always working. He works through your pain, through your pleasure and most especially when you don't realize He is working. My husband's spiritual wisdom astonishes me. He has matured into this man of God with a razor-sharp focus on the cross. He tells me he doesn't have superpowers, although to many who know him, we all seem to think he does. But there's no such thing. He tells me he lives life searching for more wisdom, no matter how intense the situation may be. In his wisdom, faith surely follows with a peace that somehow surpasses his own understanding.
Through the gift of wisdom as Lea ingeniously explains in his book, we've learned the why's and who's when it comes to silencing the unnecessarily loud noise. People will always find something to gather and gossip about. People who don't care for you to succeed will somehow find a way to bring you down to their misery. The hypocrites will stop at nothing to destroy their neighbor and its only those who lack wisdom that go out of their way to despise their neighbors. It's so sad, but you see it as the truth in every social circle you may have. We're salaciously human...everything worldly is what we so naturally adhere to.
My husband and I have lived, loved, and lost in the most extreme sense this past year. When it was so much easier to let the resounding noise of senseless negativity and defeat overcome our hope in God's second chances and new beginnings, we chose to trample through the clutter with Christ-seeking hearts. When anyone would try to bring us down, we kept each other focused on what only God knows we need...not by anyone's expectations or by their worldly standards. We seem to come together holding hands taking the road less traveled.
With as much as God have given us to persevere through, my husband constantly reminds me that in every situation, good or bad, there should be JOY that follows. There is no sense for preparing ourselves for disappointment when looking at the treacherous road ahead. Once we silence the world, keep our eyes focused and make the effort to follow Christ in his teachings, only then can we truly know God in all of his glory.
I must say there were times I thought I deserved so much more than what I got. There were times when I thought what I was given was way too much to handle. But thankfully, my husband is always next to me reminding me that joy is soon to follow. Now look at where we are today. Never in a million years did I think our marriage would be so blessed. Never did I think we could have so much to celebrate than we do now. Despite the chaos of this year and having to force ourselves to drown out the noise, God was always working on something so great. I praise God for our prayers have been answered. I am 16 weeks PREGNANT and have never felt so strong, so loved and so convicted in my 28 years of life. God is giving us the miracle of a new life. We're going to be parents very, very soon. Praise God, we seek for spiritual wisdom to carry us through it all. Now, as soon-to-be parents, it's our calling to share what wisdom we've gained with our baby-to-be so that Baby can also know just how great God truly is.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
A simple decision can change your whole life
My husband and I attended a marriage conference at Immaculate Conception Catholic Church in Denton, TX this past weekend with special guest Dr. Scott Hahn. It was an incredible experience for the both of us. It's important to note that Dr. Hahn is not only one of the nation's top theologians, but he was of a Protestant faith and later converted to Catholicism after having learned about the Bible, Christianity and further delving into his own personal walk with God.
A simple lesson Dr. Hahn addressed was making rightful decisions in life. Although it seems straightforward, we're all given the choice to follow Christ in every aspect of our lives. Once you make that choice and live by it, all of your priorities change as a direct result. Once you choose the route towards following Christ, you'll notice your language changes, your friends and social activities will change and your personal goals and purpose will inevitably change. I must say, Dr. Hahn is so right.
I've made it a point to leave behind the mistakes of the past and turn towards goodness, service, love and loyalty. As soon as I made this decision, I've noticed a new circle of friends I strive to become the sum of. But most importantly, my purpose in this life has taken a turn for the better...and for the good of a greater purpose.
I'd like to take a moment and reflect on the person I'm leaving behind. Looking back on old photos, I now realize altering my mind with liquid confidence as I seductively shake it on the dance floor now seems like a waste of my precious time and brain cells. Let's not forget, I just looked like a fool out there. I was known to be the first out on the dance floor, with my Mavs-Dancer wannabe moves after a shot or two of hard liquor. The liquid confidence made me think everyone thought I was hot. But I was NOT! Ick! Look at me! I was a disgusting mess. I was only fooling myself.
Indulging in the sin of binge drinking and the sexiness of the nightlife brought out the ugly in my heart. Choosing the indulgent lifestyle of partying (without a purpose) drove me closer and closer to death. Clearly, I don't mean death in the physical form. I was dead on the inside and avoided what was right and good in this world. I was seduced by the nighttime because the dark kept me from really seeing how I actually looked through beer-stained goggles. I hung out with a crowd whose purpose in life was to have fun, have a drink and pretend life is about pleasure and indulgence. (I'm mainly speaking to those of you who are at least 30 or above. Time to wisen up, people!) That slightly older group got me nowhere good. That group is what I became the sum of, which was a big fat nothing. Shouldn't I be looking up to them? That group stupidly lacks wisdom in what's right and does not care for the greater good. Sadly, they were who I chose to surround myself with...and now I'm still paying for the lifestyle choice I made.
But thankfully, I am working to live above the indulgence and have chosen to do what it takes to be more in the image of Christ. What I hope and dream in these days far outweighs the smallness that I once stood as. I've opened my my mind to wisdom and now lead my heart to follow a choice that not many would choose. And I'm proud of that. My prayer is to never fall for the "hook of adrenaline" or for temporary relief and pleasure.
Taking this route has not been easy, but that makes it all the more rewarding. It's especially difficult because I no longer see people who I once adored. But that's been a HUGE blessing in disguise. I look at them now with pity and lift up prayers for their lack of wisdom in the poor choices they continue to make. Sinful indulgence can take you away from what we're all created to do. As in Ephesians 2:10, we have been created by God to do good works which have already been predetermined for each of us. But it's up to us to make the simple decision that can potentially change our entire lives. As I've mentioned before, I can't say that I'm a saint. But I'm choosing to live while trying to be. God doesn't expect perfection from us. HE just wants our hearts to willingly follow Him. When you choose to make that choice, no matter how unnatural or unattractive it may seem in the worldly sense, the great reward is indescribable.
A simple lesson Dr. Hahn addressed was making rightful decisions in life. Although it seems straightforward, we're all given the choice to follow Christ in every aspect of our lives. Once you make that choice and live by it, all of your priorities change as a direct result. Once you choose the route towards following Christ, you'll notice your language changes, your friends and social activities will change and your personal goals and purpose will inevitably change. I must say, Dr. Hahn is so right.
I've made it a point to leave behind the mistakes of the past and turn towards goodness, service, love and loyalty. As soon as I made this decision, I've noticed a new circle of friends I strive to become the sum of. But most importantly, my purpose in this life has taken a turn for the better...and for the good of a greater purpose.
I'd like to take a moment and reflect on the person I'm leaving behind. Looking back on old photos, I now realize altering my mind with liquid confidence as I seductively shake it on the dance floor now seems like a waste of my precious time and brain cells. Let's not forget, I just looked like a fool out there. I was known to be the first out on the dance floor, with my Mavs-Dancer wannabe moves after a shot or two of hard liquor. The liquid confidence made me think everyone thought I was hot. But I was NOT! Ick! Look at me! I was a disgusting mess. I was only fooling myself.
Indulging in the sin of binge drinking and the sexiness of the nightlife brought out the ugly in my heart. Choosing the indulgent lifestyle of partying (without a purpose) drove me closer and closer to death. Clearly, I don't mean death in the physical form. I was dead on the inside and avoided what was right and good in this world. I was seduced by the nighttime because the dark kept me from really seeing how I actually looked through beer-stained goggles. I hung out with a crowd whose purpose in life was to have fun, have a drink and pretend life is about pleasure and indulgence. (I'm mainly speaking to those of you who are at least 30 or above. Time to wisen up, people!) That slightly older group got me nowhere good. That group is what I became the sum of, which was a big fat nothing. Shouldn't I be looking up to them? That group stupidly lacks wisdom in what's right and does not care for the greater good. Sadly, they were who I chose to surround myself with...and now I'm still paying for the lifestyle choice I made.
But thankfully, I am working to live above the indulgence and have chosen to do what it takes to be more in the image of Christ. What I hope and dream in these days far outweighs the smallness that I once stood as. I've opened my my mind to wisdom and now lead my heart to follow a choice that not many would choose. And I'm proud of that. My prayer is to never fall for the "hook of adrenaline" or for temporary relief and pleasure.
Taking this route has not been easy, but that makes it all the more rewarding. It's especially difficult because I no longer see people who I once adored. But that's been a HUGE blessing in disguise. I look at them now with pity and lift up prayers for their lack of wisdom in the poor choices they continue to make. Sinful indulgence can take you away from what we're all created to do. As in Ephesians 2:10, we have been created by God to do good works which have already been predetermined for each of us. But it's up to us to make the simple decision that can potentially change our entire lives. As I've mentioned before, I can't say that I'm a saint. But I'm choosing to live while trying to be. God doesn't expect perfection from us. HE just wants our hearts to willingly follow Him. When you choose to make that choice, no matter how unnatural or unattractive it may seem in the worldly sense, the great reward is indescribable.
Friday, August 27, 2010
Forgive me, Father for I have sinned
Today's daily devotional made me take a hard look at myself. The Word made me look back on who I was and what I was doing wrong. I will be first to admit that I suffered from a spiritual condition that afflicted my service, my efforts and how everyone perceived me.
In the past couple of years, I have made an effort to not only serve the church but also stand in front of the church as someone who was righteous and good. Like the Pharisees in Matthew 15, I was always quick to serve in the church, quick to instruct everyone around me, but my heart was far from God. I was living a double life and at the time, no one knew.
Now the secret's out, and I must humbly apologize to everyone I blind-sided. I was doing good but for the wrong reason. I was serving others rather than serving the Lord. I made it about all me when it all should have been about Him. I was selfish in my perceived selflessness.
I can't say I was fully focusing on the Lord back then. Sure I knew He was there, but I didn't always keep my heart centered on holiness. Sure I was doing good works, but that wasn't enough. I fooled myself into thinking that people must have looked up at me on the pedestal I created and thought to themselves, "she's so perfect and good because of the works she does."
Looking back, I'm so ashamed. Only now I understand that God doesn't expect perfection. He only wants our hearts. I was so busy striving for the "image" of perfection. What a facade! What a phony! Never was my heart truly where it needed to be -- serving for the Lord and only Him. I wasn't supposed to serve the people, my family or any other onlookers. I wasn't supposed to serve for my own self-interest or personal gain. My service and my heart should have been in one place...centered and focused on Him.
Father, forgive me. Back then I knew not what I was doing wrong. But now, I'm doing the work and making it a point to make it all about Him. Like the billboard says, I am second. Only when my heart is centered on Him will everything just fall rightfully into place.
In the past couple of years, I have made an effort to not only serve the church but also stand in front of the church as someone who was righteous and good. Like the Pharisees in Matthew 15, I was always quick to serve in the church, quick to instruct everyone around me, but my heart was far from God. I was living a double life and at the time, no one knew.
Now the secret's out, and I must humbly apologize to everyone I blind-sided. I was doing good but for the wrong reason. I was serving others rather than serving the Lord. I made it about all me when it all should have been about Him. I was selfish in my perceived selflessness.
I can't say I was fully focusing on the Lord back then. Sure I knew He was there, but I didn't always keep my heart centered on holiness. Sure I was doing good works, but that wasn't enough. I fooled myself into thinking that people must have looked up at me on the pedestal I created and thought to themselves, "she's so perfect and good because of the works she does."
Looking back, I'm so ashamed. Only now I understand that God doesn't expect perfection. He only wants our hearts. I was so busy striving for the "image" of perfection. What a facade! What a phony! Never was my heart truly where it needed to be -- serving for the Lord and only Him. I wasn't supposed to serve the people, my family or any other onlookers. I wasn't supposed to serve for my own self-interest or personal gain. My service and my heart should have been in one place...centered and focused on Him.
Father, forgive me. Back then I knew not what I was doing wrong. But now, I'm doing the work and making it a point to make it all about Him. Like the billboard says, I am second. Only when my heart is centered on Him will everything just fall rightfully into place.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Party with a Purpose - Support Umphress Rd United Methodist Church
As some of you know, I'm in the building committee at the church my husband grew up in, Umphress Road United Methodist Church. Since April, we've started an ongoing campaign to raise money towards the "Believe to Achieve" building project fund. This small church is made up of people from all ethnic and cultural backgrounds, ages and stages of life who seek new life in Jesus Christ.
Thanks to its growing membership, we have now outgrown the worship facility. Our building committee is working with a Dallas-based architecture firm that has created a beautifully designed plan of action for a new sanctuary. However, the financial demands are quite overwhelming. In order to make our dreams for a new church come true, donations from members outside of the community are encouraged and greatly appreciated.
I have an exciting plan to help the church in its efforts. Sign up to host a Mary Kay party with me, your MK Independent Beauty Consultant, and a percentage of what you and your friends purchase will benefit Umphress Rd UMC's efforts to build a new church facility.
As a host, you can invite your friends to get pampered for a day. Enjoy a FREE facial. Learn skin-clearing and anti-aging secrets. More importantly, party with a purpose and help Umphress raise money to build a new church.
As a thank you, each party host will earn product discounts and a FREE gift from me!! You can host a party at a location of your choice. Post a comment to this blog and I will contact you via email for more information. Please help me spread the word, and thanks so much for your continued support of my Mary Kay business. Let's get together and party with a purpose!
Thanks to its growing membership, we have now outgrown the worship facility. Our building committee is working with a Dallas-based architecture firm that has created a beautifully designed plan of action for a new sanctuary. However, the financial demands are quite overwhelming. In order to make our dreams for a new church come true, donations from members outside of the community are encouraged and greatly appreciated.
I have an exciting plan to help the church in its efforts. Sign up to host a Mary Kay party with me, your MK Independent Beauty Consultant, and a percentage of what you and your friends purchase will benefit Umphress Rd UMC's efforts to build a new church facility.
As a host, you can invite your friends to get pampered for a day. Enjoy a FREE facial. Learn skin-clearing and anti-aging secrets. More importantly, party with a purpose and help Umphress raise money to build a new church.
As a thank you, each party host will earn product discounts and a FREE gift from me!! You can host a party at a location of your choice. Post a comment to this blog and I will contact you via email for more information. Please help me spread the word, and thanks so much for your continued support of my Mary Kay business. Let's get together and party with a purpose!
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Tell me who your friends are and I'll tell you who you are
I've heard great advice about the company you keep. I work with a woman in Mary Kay who was the former VP of Marketing for Michael Jordan, the great NBA basketball player. She said Michael shared some valuable insight into the people she purposely surrounded herself with. First Michael imparted that you should NOT take advice from people you wouldn't trade bank accounts with. Secondly, he believes you will become the sum of the 5 people you surround yourself with.
Take a look around you and the people you consider near and dear to your heart. Are these the beloved ones that you regularly surround yourself with? If so, do you admire how they push you to be your best and praise you to success? If so, great! You're blessed to have caring people who will applaud you when you fulfill those hard to reach goals.
I stumbled upon another great verse in the Bible honoring the value of great friends. "He who walks with the wise grows wise, but a companion of fools suffers harm (Proverbs 13:20)." This verse truly speaks to my heart, and it forces me to take a hard look at the company I keep.
As I've written in previous posts, God has shown me through the actions and reactions of others who my true friends are. It's painfully alarming to see God revealing the truth in people's hearts. But I am forever grateful that God has shown me who praises me to success and who truly cares for my happiness. It's beautiful, and it's been a life-changing experience to see the caring folks reach out to a friend in need. It's been a HUGE blessing to let go of the friends who only care to kick you when you're down...in more ways than one.
So today I stand here passionately proud of the company I have chosen to keep. These friends will soon hear of more miraculous blessings and the success God has bestowed upon my family and myself. For those I don't consider wise in their own lives and personal choices, all I can do is pray for them and for their hearts. I can only hope they surround themselves with people who truly care for their well being. I can only hope they surround themselves with people who's lifestyle choices would make them either want to trade bank accounts or are the kind of people they want to become the sum of.
Take a look around you and the people you consider near and dear to your heart. Are these the beloved ones that you regularly surround yourself with? If so, do you admire how they push you to be your best and praise you to success? If so, great! You're blessed to have caring people who will applaud you when you fulfill those hard to reach goals.
I stumbled upon another great verse in the Bible honoring the value of great friends. "He who walks with the wise grows wise, but a companion of fools suffers harm (Proverbs 13:20)." This verse truly speaks to my heart, and it forces me to take a hard look at the company I keep.
As I've written in previous posts, God has shown me through the actions and reactions of others who my true friends are. It's painfully alarming to see God revealing the truth in people's hearts. But I am forever grateful that God has shown me who praises me to success and who truly cares for my happiness. It's beautiful, and it's been a life-changing experience to see the caring folks reach out to a friend in need. It's been a HUGE blessing to let go of the friends who only care to kick you when you're down...in more ways than one.
So today I stand here passionately proud of the company I have chosen to keep. These friends will soon hear of more miraculous blessings and the success God has bestowed upon my family and myself. For those I don't consider wise in their own lives and personal choices, all I can do is pray for them and for their hearts. I can only hope they surround themselves with people who truly care for their well being. I can only hope they surround themselves with people who's lifestyle choices would make them either want to trade bank accounts or are the kind of people they want to become the sum of.
Monday, July 19, 2010
Have I told you lately that I love you?
To my friends -- let me take this moment to let each one of you know that I love you and praise God for you. Every one of you cares about my progress, health and well being. You are concerned for me during the most trying of times. You raise me up and never kick me when I'm down. You walk in whenever the rest of the world walks out. Each of you surely pushes me to be better than my best. You challenge me to change the things I have the power to change. You're there on your knees along with me patiently waiting until God answers. You take the time to hear me out and attempt to understand the root of my faults rather than attacking the poor choices I have made.
You're there because you care, and I am forever grateful for you and for our friendship. I have said this once plus a thousand more times...each time with more meaning than the last -- I can NEVER repay each of you for your kindness. Please know that I'm asking God to.
You're there because you care, and I am forever grateful for you and for our friendship. I have said this once plus a thousand more times...each time with more meaning than the last -- I can NEVER repay each of you for your kindness. Please know that I'm asking God to.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Learning the hard way
Today was day 15 of daily devotional with my husband. Today's scripture reading is 1 Corinthians 4:1-5. I was in for a rude awakening immediately after reading. God spoke to my heart and I'm now understanding that as Christians, we MUST be slow to judge others but quick to judge ourselves. In my last post I did not obey.
I intended to put myself out there so that whoever reads this blog sees I'm nothing but an imperfect person trying to do what's right and good. I am and always will be a firm believer that nothing in my life just happened to me. God allows the burdens and joys as a direct result of the lifestyle choice I have made from the FREE WILL God has blessed me with. If I choose to live wrongfully, I will suffer consequences. If I choose to live righteously according to the Word, I will be blessed by HIS gifts alone.
Today's devotional taught me a valuable life lesson in my Christian journey, and I had to learn the hard way. Although I was quick to judge myself, I was much too quick to judge lifestyle choices of others. In the previous post, I allowed my impulsiveness to get the best of me, and I let that overpower what is right.
Only God can judge. Only God can condemn. It's hard for me to grasp that only God can expose the intentions of the heart. Only I can say my life is left to face consequences based on past lifestyle choices. I regret posting what was in my heart at that exact moment. There was no humility in my timing, and that's my bad.
I intended to put myself out there so that whoever reads this blog sees I'm nothing but an imperfect person trying to do what's right and good. I am and always will be a firm believer that nothing in my life just happened to me. God allows the burdens and joys as a direct result of the lifestyle choice I have made from the FREE WILL God has blessed me with. If I choose to live wrongfully, I will suffer consequences. If I choose to live righteously according to the Word, I will be blessed by HIS gifts alone.
Today's devotional taught me a valuable life lesson in my Christian journey, and I had to learn the hard way. Although I was quick to judge myself, I was much too quick to judge lifestyle choices of others. In the previous post, I allowed my impulsiveness to get the best of me, and I let that overpower what is right.
Only God can judge. Only God can condemn. It's hard for me to grasp that only God can expose the intentions of the heart. Only I can say my life is left to face consequences based on past lifestyle choices. I regret posting what was in my heart at that exact moment. There was no humility in my timing, and that's my bad.
Monday, July 12, 2010
The Answer Man
A while back I was on a marketing project to promote and assist in production of promotional trailers for a great indie flick entitled "The Answer Man" starring Jeff Daniels and Lauren Graham.
This is a great romantic comedy with a great storyline. What I loved most about this flick is the resounding message that just now clicked for me. Jeff Daniels plays a reclusive, troubled yet gifted writer who authored a book entitled "Me and God," which redefines spirituality in an age where every walking, breathing being questions what's the meaning of life and does God actually exist? This book was a best seller and it's depicted that everyone who reads the text experiences a life-changing epiphany after learning about the author's "chats" with God. From what I understand, the author lives a life dodging friendly harassment from lovers of his work. He receives mail that he never opens from his fans on a daily basis. Everyone is searching for the author as they search for answers to their greatest questions about the meaning of life. Since it seems this author has published all of life's answers, Daniels is known in this flick as "the answer man."
I'm not going to attempt to be a film critic by boring you with every reason as to why you MUST watch this film. It's on Showtime On Demand right now. Order it (at no charge) and watch it at your leisure. Not only is it charming and enjoyable, you'll learn something about life...I can almost guarantee it.
There's a great dialogue between Daniels and a supporting actor. The other actor seizes every opportunity to question Daniels on important life questions.
Q: Why can't I do the things I want to do? There's so much I know I'm capable of but I never do. Why is that?
A: The trick is to realize you're always doing what you want to do. No one is making you do anything. Once you get that, you see that you're free and that life is a series of choices...nothing happens to you -- you choose.
This dialogue made quite a profound impact on me. For someone as ignorant to living life within reason as I've been, this was a huge realization! I always questioned, "Why God, did this have to happen to me?" It took this film to get me to realize God gave us FREE WILL. Things have happened to me as a consequence of my choices...good or bad decisions always reap a consequence. That's brilliant!
This struck a chord within me in light of recent experiences and lessons learned. I've written in previous posts that I've messed up in life so severely you can't even imagine the darkness I was in. But enough about me...what about you?
Take a look at your life and your choices. Are you happy with where you're at? Do you accept that you did what you wanted to do and your current standing in life is a direct result from the path you chose to take? Forget acceptance as it can be difficult to swallow. Do you understand that you're always doing what you want to do? Do you understand that no one is making you do anything? Do you get that life is a series of choices -- nothing ever just happens to you...because you choose? Do you get it? Do you get that?
Every lifestyle IS A CHOICE! Whether it's to live righteously as God intended or to live in dark waters because sometimes it's more appealing or flat out more convenient, your way of life is a freakin choice! Hear my heart -- I am suffering consequences in life because of stupid CHOICES I made. The world that tries to bring me down is a direct result from the poor decisions I selfishly made.
Then there are those who foolishly believe the opposite. They DECIDE on a lifestyle CHOICE they believe was not to their choosing. They think a certain choice is not one made but instead it was inherently imprinted on the fabric of their being. Instead they choose to live life unnaturally according to God's word, and they're left to suffer from that choice. It's not a state of just being -- it's a choice! You can choose to live life taking the road less traveled or finding the quickest path to convenience. Based on your decision, your life will be impacted. It's a freakin choice! Oh my gosh I'm so freakin heated right now. I am living proof that things in this life happen not because you ask them to but because you choose! Repeat this with me...life is a series of choices. Nothing happens to you -- you freakin choose! AHHHHH!
On a much lighter and enlightening note, I have another simply profound answer to my life. On Day 11 of daily devotional with my husband, I was rocked by another realization. Read James 1:19-25...whoa baby! I understand what you believe is not what matters most -- it's about what you obey. Many of us claim to read the Bible, but how many of us actually follow and obey the Word? You must understand as I have recently come to accept, YOU WILL NOT HAVE THE BLESSINGS OF GOD UNTIL YOU OBEY THE WORD. Do you get that at all? Whether or not you accept this truth, it is the TRUTH!
If you want to be blessed in whatever capacity you feel you deserve a blessing, then you must OBEY! Don't question...don't linger...don't argue. Just OBEY! Once you do, you'll be blessed by God with gifts HE feels you deserve. Until that day of obedience, you will continue to choose your choice and will face the consequences -- good or bad.
Good luck to you. I will pray for you.
This is a great romantic comedy with a great storyline. What I loved most about this flick is the resounding message that just now clicked for me. Jeff Daniels plays a reclusive, troubled yet gifted writer who authored a book entitled "Me and God," which redefines spirituality in an age where every walking, breathing being questions what's the meaning of life and does God actually exist? This book was a best seller and it's depicted that everyone who reads the text experiences a life-changing epiphany after learning about the author's "chats" with God. From what I understand, the author lives a life dodging friendly harassment from lovers of his work. He receives mail that he never opens from his fans on a daily basis. Everyone is searching for the author as they search for answers to their greatest questions about the meaning of life. Since it seems this author has published all of life's answers, Daniels is known in this flick as "the answer man."
I'm not going to attempt to be a film critic by boring you with every reason as to why you MUST watch this film. It's on Showtime On Demand right now. Order it (at no charge) and watch it at your leisure. Not only is it charming and enjoyable, you'll learn something about life...I can almost guarantee it.
There's a great dialogue between Daniels and a supporting actor. The other actor seizes every opportunity to question Daniels on important life questions.
Q: Why can't I do the things I want to do? There's so much I know I'm capable of but I never do. Why is that?
A: The trick is to realize you're always doing what you want to do. No one is making you do anything. Once you get that, you see that you're free and that life is a series of choices...nothing happens to you -- you choose.
This dialogue made quite a profound impact on me. For someone as ignorant to living life within reason as I've been, this was a huge realization! I always questioned, "Why God, did this have to happen to me?" It took this film to get me to realize God gave us FREE WILL. Things have happened to me as a consequence of my choices...good or bad decisions always reap a consequence. That's brilliant!
This struck a chord within me in light of recent experiences and lessons learned. I've written in previous posts that I've messed up in life so severely you can't even imagine the darkness I was in. But enough about me...what about you?
Take a look at your life and your choices. Are you happy with where you're at? Do you accept that you did what you wanted to do and your current standing in life is a direct result from the path you chose to take? Forget acceptance as it can be difficult to swallow. Do you understand that you're always doing what you want to do? Do you understand that no one is making you do anything? Do you get that life is a series of choices -- nothing ever just happens to you...because you choose? Do you get it? Do you get that?
Every lifestyle IS A CHOICE! Whether it's to live righteously as God intended or to live in dark waters because sometimes it's more appealing or flat out more convenient, your way of life is a freakin choice! Hear my heart -- I am suffering consequences in life because of stupid CHOICES I made. The world that tries to bring me down is a direct result from the poor decisions I selfishly made.
Then there are those who foolishly believe the opposite. They DECIDE on a lifestyle CHOICE they believe was not to their choosing. They think a certain choice is not one made but instead it was inherently imprinted on the fabric of their being. Instead they choose to live life unnaturally according to God's word, and they're left to suffer from that choice. It's not a state of just being -- it's a choice! You can choose to live life taking the road less traveled or finding the quickest path to convenience. Based on your decision, your life will be impacted. It's a freakin choice! Oh my gosh I'm so freakin heated right now. I am living proof that things in this life happen not because you ask them to but because you choose! Repeat this with me...life is a series of choices. Nothing happens to you -- you freakin choose! AHHHHH!
On a much lighter and enlightening note, I have another simply profound answer to my life. On Day 11 of daily devotional with my husband, I was rocked by another realization. Read James 1:19-25...whoa baby! I understand what you believe is not what matters most -- it's about what you obey. Many of us claim to read the Bible, but how many of us actually follow and obey the Word? You must understand as I have recently come to accept, YOU WILL NOT HAVE THE BLESSINGS OF GOD UNTIL YOU OBEY THE WORD. Do you get that at all? Whether or not you accept this truth, it is the TRUTH!
If you want to be blessed in whatever capacity you feel you deserve a blessing, then you must OBEY! Don't question...don't linger...don't argue. Just OBEY! Once you do, you'll be blessed by God with gifts HE feels you deserve. Until that day of obedience, you will continue to choose your choice and will face the consequences -- good or bad.
Good luck to you. I will pray for you.
Friday, July 2, 2010
The Prosperity Gospel
I recently learned about the Prosperity Gospel and I'm doing further research on the topic. In the Prosperity Gospel -- aka Word of Faith -- those who believe are encouraged to use God rather than allow God to use the believer. It's also the belief that if you are "successful" in life then God is with you. From what I understand, the Prosperity Gospel is the antithesis of how Christianity is defined in the Bible.
In opposition to the Prosperity Gospel, Christian believers should seek the power of the Holy Spirit to live according to God's will...not according to convenience or primarily for your gain. Following the Word of Faith doctrine, faith cannot be viewed as such for this demands wholeheartedly trusting in God. Instead, Word of Faith uses spirituality to control the universe. Some argue "this movement teaches that faith is a matter of what we say more than whom we trust or what truths we embrace and affirm in our hearts." (referenced in Christianity in Crisis: 21st Century by Hank Hanegraaff via gotquestions.org) Interestingly enough, even in the Bible we are warned against those who may follow this doctrine of faith and even Paul the apostle views practices like this as heresy. Reverting back to Prosperity teaching, followers do not let God work on His own. Moreover, this practice does not honor God as Lord of all because He cannot work until the believer allows Him to do so. However, I am a firm believer that prayer doesn't change God...prayer changes me.
I cared enough to look into biblical interpretations as I stumbled upon (www.gotquestions.org) and (http://bible.logos.com). Paul warned Timothy about evil in wrongful faith practices. In 1 Timothy 6:9, Paul warns of men who assumed godliness was a means of gain and their desire for riches was a trap that brought them “into ruin and destruction.” Yikes...
Making an effort to understand the Prosperity Gospel is what brought me to look further into the verse listed above. I think about my own privileged and blessed life these past 28 years. At an early age, I was taught the importance of spiritual wisdom and having faith that God's ruling hand controls our fate. I've been blessed with more times of happiness than times of trials. Growing up, I had it pretty easy. In high school and college, I was quite privileged. In those times of "easy living," I truly felt God was with me because I had it so great.
But looking back to any times of sadness or difficulty, I can't say that I fully believed God was carrying me through any pain or discomfort. It's not that I thought HE left me, I just didn't acknowledge HIS presence and guidance through whatever storm I was weathering. After a while, I may have been convinced that having all of these blessings in my life, for all of my life, was when God was really working. When God blesses me with gifts and happiness, then HE must really be there. But when the going gets tough, I failed to acknowledge HIS guiding light and instead would rely on my own understanding and inner strength to pull me out of that predicament.
I always thought God was omnipresent when I was successful in life. I hate to admit, but I almost felt as if HE wasn't there unless I asked him to be there. Looking back, I would every now and then give my Lord in the heavens just a passing glance. I somehow convinced myself, "don't worry, God. I got this."
Then a tumultuous storm came, and for a while, I chose to fall into the darkest of waters by relying on no one else but my evil self. I was in true self-denial after convincing myself that I had it all under control. I believed I was in control. I didn't want to rely on God's warnings or His guiding light to break me away from sinful habits. I wanted what I wanted and let nothing get in my way. I controlled what I mistakenly thought was mine to manipulate. It was a terrifying place to be, and I'm now left to pick up after myself and the detritus I left behind.
Relying on yourself is dangerous...I know from lessons learned the hard way. It's only now that I'm understanding that I encouraged wrongfully using God rather than wholeheartedly allowing Him to use me. I have grown up to know that as Christians, we MUST let go and let God. I struggled to understand that fundamental concept. Only now am I beginning to explore it because only now am I looking to something greater than my own understanding to lead the way.
In opposition to the Prosperity Gospel, Christian believers should seek the power of the Holy Spirit to live according to God's will...not according to convenience or primarily for your gain. Following the Word of Faith doctrine, faith cannot be viewed as such for this demands wholeheartedly trusting in God. Instead, Word of Faith uses spirituality to control the universe. Some argue "this movement teaches that faith is a matter of what we say more than whom we trust or what truths we embrace and affirm in our hearts." (referenced in Christianity in Crisis: 21st Century by Hank Hanegraaff via gotquestions.org) Interestingly enough, even in the Bible we are warned against those who may follow this doctrine of faith and even Paul the apostle views practices like this as heresy. Reverting back to Prosperity teaching, followers do not let God work on His own. Moreover, this practice does not honor God as Lord of all because He cannot work until the believer allows Him to do so. However, I am a firm believer that prayer doesn't change God...prayer changes me.
I cared enough to look into biblical interpretations as I stumbled upon (www.gotquestions.org) and (http://bible.logos.com). Paul warned Timothy about evil in wrongful faith practices. In 1 Timothy 6:9, Paul warns of men who assumed godliness was a means of gain and their desire for riches was a trap that brought them “into ruin and destruction.” Yikes...
Making an effort to understand the Prosperity Gospel is what brought me to look further into the verse listed above. I think about my own privileged and blessed life these past 28 years. At an early age, I was taught the importance of spiritual wisdom and having faith that God's ruling hand controls our fate. I've been blessed with more times of happiness than times of trials. Growing up, I had it pretty easy. In high school and college, I was quite privileged. In those times of "easy living," I truly felt God was with me because I had it so great.
But looking back to any times of sadness or difficulty, I can't say that I fully believed God was carrying me through any pain or discomfort. It's not that I thought HE left me, I just didn't acknowledge HIS presence and guidance through whatever storm I was weathering. After a while, I may have been convinced that having all of these blessings in my life, for all of my life, was when God was really working. When God blesses me with gifts and happiness, then HE must really be there. But when the going gets tough, I failed to acknowledge HIS guiding light and instead would rely on my own understanding and inner strength to pull me out of that predicament.
I always thought God was omnipresent when I was successful in life. I hate to admit, but I almost felt as if HE wasn't there unless I asked him to be there. Looking back, I would every now and then give my Lord in the heavens just a passing glance. I somehow convinced myself, "don't worry, God. I got this."
Then a tumultuous storm came, and for a while, I chose to fall into the darkest of waters by relying on no one else but my evil self. I was in true self-denial after convincing myself that I had it all under control. I believed I was in control. I didn't want to rely on God's warnings or His guiding light to break me away from sinful habits. I wanted what I wanted and let nothing get in my way. I controlled what I mistakenly thought was mine to manipulate. It was a terrifying place to be, and I'm now left to pick up after myself and the detritus I left behind.
Relying on yourself is dangerous...I know from lessons learned the hard way. It's only now that I'm understanding that I encouraged wrongfully using God rather than wholeheartedly allowing Him to use me. I have grown up to know that as Christians, we MUST let go and let God. I struggled to understand that fundamental concept. Only now am I beginning to explore it because only now am I looking to something greater than my own understanding to lead the way.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
I never said I was a saint...but why not try to be?
Today was Day 1 of early morning daily devotional with my husband. Although we read the Bible together almost everyday, today was the first time we got up at 6:15am for no other reason than to read the Word together. It was beautiful. I know we started our day off right.
After we read today's scripture readings, we discussed how God's Word applies in our daily lives and the struggles we're faced with. We got on the subject of persecution we're both experiencing from friends. It's tough to be ignored by those who were once near and dear to us. Add on to that the harassing comments from those who don't understand what we're trying to accomplish.
My husband and I are actively involved with Umphress Road United Methodist Church. We and other church members are racking our brains trying to raise funds to build a $1million sanctuary for this church that so desperately needs to be rebuilt. For the past couple of years, I have stood right by my husband in his efforts as the church's building committee leader. I have made it a point to support him, support the church and to involve myself in the work he's doing. I've been so bold as to speak fervently in front of the congregation about my own passions and visions for the new church building...as daunting of a task as it may seem. What makes my efforts so bold is that people see me as imperfect (and I truly am imperfect) and to them, I'm the last person to ever preach to the crowd based on my recent history of mistakes.
I have been publicly scorned for choosing to live righteously although I'm as human as any other sinner. I have become a social outcast in certain groups who choose to be seduced by the sin rather than being open minded to my intentions to make things right moving forward. It's been a spiritual struggle that empowers me to take the road less traveled. A few months ago I decided to change my heart and no longer follow the path to soulful destruction. I am no longer in control, and I will now submit to the Almighty rather than to rely on myself and to succumb to their worldly opinions.
They want a rise out of me. They want to see me suffer. They want nothing but unhappiness in my heart because THEY feel I deserve that. But who are they to judge me? Who are they to judge my past mistakes? Who are they to persecute me? Only God knows my heart and only God can be THE judge.
My husband has supported me through thick and thin. It is through his own faith in Christ that he is able to look beyond the pain to see the reward of perseverance. He makes me realize that those who rely on worldly desire may struggle with the sanctity of redemption and salvation in Christ Jesus alone. But for those who choose to accept that this life is not our own to control, empowerment and unyielding strength will prevail. I trust in the Lord and only in Christ I find strength.
The Lord does not want me to suffer. The Lord will bless me with eternal happiness. In fact, despite the chaos in our lives, we have received blessings and gifts so great they can only be heaven sent. My very wise cousin, Daniel once said that if you choose to live life the right way, then everything you dream of will fall into place. In the Word, we are taught that if we follow Christ, what we feel we truly deserve will be given to us. Amen to that!
To those individuals who have chosen to judge my heart through my past actions, I am sorry for having hurt you. I am sorry that you're left utterly confused and I'm aware that you may not know how to handle me after realizing I was capable of such a heinous crime. But I pray that you find forgiveness in your heart and you open your mind to see the beauty of faith, redemption and perseverance.
I never said I was a saint. But I will continually strive for perfection. I'm learning more and more that in this life, if we're not trying to become saints then we're doing nothing at all.
After we read today's scripture readings, we discussed how God's Word applies in our daily lives and the struggles we're faced with. We got on the subject of persecution we're both experiencing from friends. It's tough to be ignored by those who were once near and dear to us. Add on to that the harassing comments from those who don't understand what we're trying to accomplish.
My husband and I are actively involved with Umphress Road United Methodist Church. We and other church members are racking our brains trying to raise funds to build a $1million sanctuary for this church that so desperately needs to be rebuilt. For the past couple of years, I have stood right by my husband in his efforts as the church's building committee leader. I have made it a point to support him, support the church and to involve myself in the work he's doing. I've been so bold as to speak fervently in front of the congregation about my own passions and visions for the new church building...as daunting of a task as it may seem. What makes my efforts so bold is that people see me as imperfect (and I truly am imperfect) and to them, I'm the last person to ever preach to the crowd based on my recent history of mistakes.
I have been publicly scorned for choosing to live righteously although I'm as human as any other sinner. I have become a social outcast in certain groups who choose to be seduced by the sin rather than being open minded to my intentions to make things right moving forward. It's been a spiritual struggle that empowers me to take the road less traveled. A few months ago I decided to change my heart and no longer follow the path to soulful destruction. I am no longer in control, and I will now submit to the Almighty rather than to rely on myself and to succumb to their worldly opinions.
They want a rise out of me. They want to see me suffer. They want nothing but unhappiness in my heart because THEY feel I deserve that. But who are they to judge me? Who are they to judge my past mistakes? Who are they to persecute me? Only God knows my heart and only God can be THE judge.
My husband has supported me through thick and thin. It is through his own faith in Christ that he is able to look beyond the pain to see the reward of perseverance. He makes me realize that those who rely on worldly desire may struggle with the sanctity of redemption and salvation in Christ Jesus alone. But for those who choose to accept that this life is not our own to control, empowerment and unyielding strength will prevail. I trust in the Lord and only in Christ I find strength.
The Lord does not want me to suffer. The Lord will bless me with eternal happiness. In fact, despite the chaos in our lives, we have received blessings and gifts so great they can only be heaven sent. My very wise cousin, Daniel once said that if you choose to live life the right way, then everything you dream of will fall into place. In the Word, we are taught that if we follow Christ, what we feel we truly deserve will be given to us. Amen to that!
To those individuals who have chosen to judge my heart through my past actions, I am sorry for having hurt you. I am sorry that you're left utterly confused and I'm aware that you may not know how to handle me after realizing I was capable of such a heinous crime. But I pray that you find forgiveness in your heart and you open your mind to see the beauty of faith, redemption and perseverance.
I never said I was a saint. But I will continually strive for perfection. I'm learning more and more that in this life, if we're not trying to become saints then we're doing nothing at all.
Monday, June 28, 2010
How can I be used?
God has blessed me with insurmountable talents. HE gave me gifts of communication and influence, creative passions, music, athleticism, strong health, and a growing sense of wisdom in spirituality.
There are so many things I can do -- few of which I can do extremely well. I know God strategically blessed me with gifts to be used for some life-altering purpose. But what the heck is it? How am I supposed to be used to serve HIS greater purpose?
Look at the late Michael Jackson. This past weekend was a time of remembrance for the greatest entertainer that ever lived. I heard an interview he conducted on-air a while back. He said nothing in his life was done without him first asking God to guide him in every step and in every decision. He always asked God to lead the way. He also never wanted his subconscious to overcome his wisdom and faith in God. He had faith God would show him how he could be used to touch the lives of people all over the world. He knew God blessed him with a gift of music and dance to give the people what they want. He used his talents as a means to strive for perfection. He claimed in his interview that he had yet to reach perfection. But he never stopped trying -- even in his final days on earth.
Michael is an inspiration. He inspired me to question how I can be used for a much greater purpose. What am I meant to do with these awesome talents God has blessed me with? I want to do something HUGE...but I have NO clue what that's supposed to be.
There are so many things I can do -- few of which I can do extremely well. I know God strategically blessed me with gifts to be used for some life-altering purpose. But what the heck is it? How am I supposed to be used to serve HIS greater purpose?
Look at the late Michael Jackson. This past weekend was a time of remembrance for the greatest entertainer that ever lived. I heard an interview he conducted on-air a while back. He said nothing in his life was done without him first asking God to guide him in every step and in every decision. He always asked God to lead the way. He also never wanted his subconscious to overcome his wisdom and faith in God. He had faith God would show him how he could be used to touch the lives of people all over the world. He knew God blessed him with a gift of music and dance to give the people what they want. He used his talents as a means to strive for perfection. He claimed in his interview that he had yet to reach perfection. But he never stopped trying -- even in his final days on earth.
Michael is an inspiration. He inspired me to question how I can be used for a much greater purpose. What am I meant to do with these awesome talents God has blessed me with? I want to do something HUGE...but I have NO clue what that's supposed to be.
This is how I feel, honestly...
I am so disappointed in my lack of creative inspiration. I've always thought I was a gifted writer with a warmth in my words I so movingly captured. But right now, I'm suffering from intense writer's block. I have so many important things to share and countless life lessons are teaching me how to be better than I have ever tried to be. I have a wealth of knowledge and wisdom I've gained that I want to share. But it's overwhelming. I'm overwhelmed. So many thoughts plague me but I can't find the words to convey just how meaningful my new life has become.
I have so many wonderful praises, concerns, hurts, fears and joys that I wish I can share. Although I have a million words to write, I can't quite put a single thought down to where it makes any sense.
I'm stunted in my own creative passions. I don't sing anymore. I don't dance anymore and I surely don't write out my heart as much as I once did. I am working towards becoming this beautiful being that God created. I am happy being me -- but I don't know how to tell you.
I have so many wonderful praises, concerns, hurts, fears and joys that I wish I can share. Although I have a million words to write, I can't quite put a single thought down to where it makes any sense.
I'm stunted in my own creative passions. I don't sing anymore. I don't dance anymore and I surely don't write out my heart as much as I once did. I am working towards becoming this beautiful being that God created. I am happy being me -- but I don't know how to tell you.
Monday, June 21, 2010
My "I" Story
I have owned and operated a Mary Kay business since November 2008. I was hesitant to get involved because my mother practically raised me to run away from all of those cake-faced, big-haired, blue eye shadow-wearing, Pepto Bismol-pink Cadillac-driving crazy ladies. Lo and behold...I aspire to be as hugely successful as those women are.
My message to you all -- don't knock til you try it! I firmly believed I was the last person on earth to have started a Mary Kay business. I have a professional background in marketing and PR in technology, sports and entertainment. Makeup was the last thing I ever wanted to base a career on. But guess what, folks?! Mary Kay isn't all about slinging lipstick on your back and knocking on doors from dusk til dawn to make a living! This highly lucrative and lifestyle changing career is about so much more!
I have come from a very fortunate and thriving professional background and I'm skeptical when it comes to those multi-level marketing/pyramid scheme opportunities. I always believed working for someone else and fulfilling their company's goals and missions was going to make me successful and wealthy. Praise God...I learned early on that I was so wrong!
I graduated from the University of North Texas Cum Laude with a degree in Journalism. I knew early on what I was meant to do in the corporate world. Straight out of college, I worked in a glamorous PR position then was personally hired by a self-made billionaire entrepreneur to implement marketing strategies for his start-up businesses. Looking back, I've had it pretty darn good -- in fact -- many can say I had the "dream jobs."
I've worked a total of 5+ years in those 2 professional capacities. Although it appeared I had it all, my heart truly wasn't fulfilled. In the last "dream job," I admit, I was under utilized yet over allocated. I was spread out way too thin yet my talents and my potential were never truly being challenged. Everyone's perception of my day-to-day reality was so skewed. No one will ever understand how miserable I became knowing how much more I could have been doing if only I had come across an opportunity that wasn't just a dream job -- more like an opportunity that pushed me to achieve a dream life. Then I learned about the Mary Kay marketing opportunity. I heard about the business model and I learned about how quickly I can become my own boss and determine my own financial destiny.
Allow me to dispel a few misconceptions. Mary Kay is NOT a multi-level marketing business nor is it a pyramid scheme. In Mary Kay, my commission checks are made payable to me from Mary Kay Corporate and I don't take money away from my working team members. I have already surpassed my recruiter, which is something you can't do in a multi-level marketing structure. Mary Kay isn't a pyramid scheme -- those are illegal and may wind you up in jail! Mary Kay isn't just for uneducated stay-at-home moms who have too much time on their hands. Mary Kay isn't meant for natural-born salespeople. Mary Kay isn't just about home parties and playing with makeup and all things dainty and pink. Please hear my heart -- Mary Kay is about so much more.
Thanks to Mary Kay, I was able to retire myself out of the corporate world to operate my own business. It's nice to know the harder I work, the more I get paid. I decided that the Mary Kay opportunity was perfect for me. I learned that in order to become massively successful in the way I wanted to be a success, I had to work for myself!
I was tired of putting my blood, sweat and tears into something that took me away from thoughts of starting a family, serving the church and living life to the fullest. I used to work 'round the clock nearly 7 days a week stressed out with nervous anxiety each time an email came through. I learned that I could have all of these high profile accomplishments if I give myself to a profession that expected nothing less than work, work, work. I learned that in order to be successful in the company I was at, I had to put aside any hopes of becoming a mother so I can concentrate on me, me, me. I learned that job defined me and never forced me take a hard look at who I wanted to be and who God intended me to be.
So again, I praise God for the introduction of the Mary Kay business opportunity into my life. For those like me who have choosen to become actively involved in operating our own businesses under the Mary Kay corporate structure, we must adhere to the following:
Serve God first.
Serve family second.
Serve career third.
This is how life should be. It's right, it's not self-serving, it's about being a part of something that's bigger than you. Mary Kay gave me the opportunity to make God my business partner. Mary Kay has taught me lifelong lessons that no other cubicle-structured, politically organized corporate environment could provide. I have been pushed in this business not only professionally but also spiritually and personally. Taking God as my business partner has provided wealth in wisdom...which is what I've needed my entire life. I love the Christ-centered woman I have become. I love that I can share my faith to others in this business. I love that I have earned money to afford my family and friends luxuries I never could have afforded working in that J-O-B. I love how much this business has changed my life for the better.
I praise God for an open mind and an open heart to learn about this business. If I never got into Mary Kay, I wouldn't know how to be the wife my husband deserves. I've learned a new appreciation for family life and can now be at home to fulfill my wifely duties. I enjoy the simple things of home now. There's an extreme sense of satisfaction and reward knowing that my husband has less menial things to worry about and he'll always have freshly ironed shirts to wear to work. I love that I have more time to play with my three lovable pups. Most of all, I love that I can now make my life's goal to be an amazing wife and one day a loving mother. Who knew that I would ever want kids?! It's interesting to admit that Mary Kay is what brought me here. Mary Kay is what taught me life isn't just about me. I love this new woman I have become and appreciating the much finer, more simple beautiful things in this life.
Praise God for Mary Kay. I love my job!
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