First of all, I don’t believe I deserve a lot of the great things I have in my life. In all honesty, I don’t ever feel good enough for my handsome husband who loves me. I am imperfect in character. I am cruel at times and dangerously self-centered in most cases. I have created rifts in our relationship and have brought us to painful depths I never, ever want us to feel again.
But together we stand eternally, and our love is deeper today with greater substance and purposeful meaning. We just celebrated our six-year wedding anniversary on November 17th. We have made it this far and have two young boys to nurture and lead by spiritual example. There is more to us than meets the eye. But what a beautiful picture God has created for us, through us and in us.
After giving thanks for another blessed year of life and answered prayers, I am most grateful for one moment I shared with my husband on Thanksgiving night. Our house grew quiet after it was once filled with family and toddlers during a festive lunch. We were up late with our two boys just enjoying our family time together. We were all exhausted from the busy day and looking forward to not having any set plans for the rest of the weekend. I don’t remember what happened right before, but out of nowhere, my husband got the attention of our two year old and then tackled me to the ground. Once I was defenseless with his entire body weight pinning me down, he kissed me all over my face and my head and my hair--so lovingly and frantically all at the same time. Our son noticed us and laughed. I assume he felt just an ounce of the joy that filled my heart at that moment. Our two-year-old son could see just how much his daddy loves his mommy and was amused at the very sight. It was the perfect ending to another great family holiday and such a special reminder as to where we are in this union despite all the twists and turns God allowed to happen in our marriage.
I’m really giddy thinking about those few minutes we shared a few nights ago. For in that fleeting moment, I was overjoyed that the Lord gives us times like those to revel in forever and for always. For me, it was another reminder of His merciful grace that comes in many forms. But I’m eternally grateful for the package it comes in as an adoring husband He gave to me love.
